I feel like crap but I won't give up.

I broke up with my boyfriend. It's been 5 years we were together. He was my first love, so it's pretty hard right now. We agreed this evening that it would be better if we separate from each others instead of fighting and yelling all the time.

I have been eating like crap all week because I let myself go with all those emotions, and I have to count Halloween in all this.

I didn't exercise this week except Monday and today because I went to the doctor Monday and had liquid nitrogen under my feet and it was very painful. I'm slowly recovering.

It will maybe take a few months before my ex go out of the apartment, but I think that I will have more time for myself instead of always worrying for others.

As a good news, right now I'm at about 203, which is good considering how I ate this week. I have to take action now but I'm very determined.

I know I might cry a lot. I have an hard time to control my emotions. But I have to get through that. And I won't binge.