Defending my choices. Is it necessary?
Saturday, November 02, 2013
As I continue down this path to my success, many people are questioning my choices. What am I eating? How long can I eat this way? What about all the things I'm giving up? Can I go the rest of my life without ice cream? Chocolate? Pasta? Wine??
Will I give these things up forever? Yes and no. If you know me at all, you know that some of these thing HURT my body. Dairy ALWAYS results in an IBS flare up. One serving of Greek yogurt put me in the bathroom within 20 minutes a week ago! Ice cream is worse! So, IBS or yummy ice cream? For me, it's a no brainer. Chocolate? No strong reaction physical other than the scale WILL go up. So...Yes, I will - and do - have it occasionally. But I have it knowing that I will have a battle with the scale afterwards. And I have it once. The beauty of my way of eating - for me - is I know I can have a small piece, enjoy it, then go back to my normal eating and the scale will also return to normal. I don't have an all or nothing, obsessive reaction to it. Chocolate - or whatever it may be - will ALWAYS be there. It's not going to disappear off the face of the earth tomorrow so I don't have to eat myself sick - or even have a small nibble - today. If it doesn't fit in to my plan today, for whatever reason, I CAN WAIT to have it. The cravings no longer control me. Don't get me wrong. I was MORE THAN READY to adopt this lifestyle when I did. I WANTED to be successful this time. I fell victim to the 1-2 weeks on a plan in the past and I was so over that. Six months ago I wasn't ready. I wasn't committed. I didn't desire it enough to make drastic changes and stick with them. While cookies, breads, donut, have NEVER tempted me to the point of having to have them, I loved my pasta, ice cream and wine. They were my vices and I wasn't ready or willing to give them up. HOWEVER my way wasn't working any more. It had taken me 5 + years to get from 198 to 172 and I'd been stuck in the 170s for 3 years! I was SO SICK of being fat! So sick of not making progress. So sick of busting my @$$ to lose a few pounds, only to have it all come back as soon as I relaxed a little. Eating my way, which swings between Paleo, Primal and Atkins, works for me! I'm committed to it. I don't feel cheated or ruled by it. I feel healthier - not skinnier - HEALTHIER! when I stay on my plan. Yesterday I had an AMAZINGLY successful ST session. I'm SORE today! I haven't been this sore in a few weeks! Wanna know what I craved afterwards? Cuz, yes, I was hungry! I craved rotisserie chicken! I had to wait 30 minutes to pick up my son so I went to the store, grabbed a chicken and ate HALF of it in the car! That was at 3PM. I wasn't hungry the rest of the day. Protein feeds my muscles and fills me up with very few calories or carbs! Later on, I forced myself to eat my way to 1000 calories by 7PM, to eat my way to 75 g protein, my personal numbers based on my weight and fitness level, but my carbs were still low. Roughly 30 for the day. For me it's all about making the choices I know are smart for me. Eating the foods that will satisfy my nutritional needs and my hunger without blowing the progress I've made so far. Like I said, six months ago I didn't want it bad enough to commit to the process. Now I do! And seeing that first 8 pounds - water weight or not - come off in the first week gave me the encouragement and the proof I needed that this was right for me and that I was finally ready and had found a way of eating that I could stick to. For the long haul! I don't feel deprived because I'm not depriving myself. If I want a treat, I have a SMALL and satisfying one, and I accept the fact that I now have ground to make up. The difference now is I know eating my way will fix the damage within 48 hours and I'm back on track to losing more. I know some people find my plan and my belief in my plan offensive but ya know what? I can't care about that. That's not about me. That's about them. I don't have to deal with it or explain myself. I just have to be true to ME and keep doing what's working FOR ME! And the results I've been seeing on the scale for the past six weeks are all I need to convince me that I'm on the right path for ME! I believe that any plan will work for a while IF you work it! The key is finding a plan you can live with and then sticking to it! Make the commitment! Day in and day out. If you're going to go off plan, make it a conscious decision and have a plan to stay in control. Decide what your splurge will be, right down to the quantity. Accept that and stick to it, then be ready to work on damage control. Be ready to pay the piper, so to speak. Then get right back on track. It's not the treats that hurt our progress. It's the lack of planning and consciousness and the resulting binges that do the damage. The mindlessness that is so unnecessary. Easy? No! Mindlessness is easy. Consciousness requires effort and planning but as human beings we are more than capable of consciousness. So find a plan you can live with and stay focused on your goal. Believe in yourself! You, too, can do this! Many have before and many more will continue to do so. Do it FOR YOU! No one else matters!