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Thursday, November 14, 2013

This past week I have been totally overwhelmed. I have been slipping into the abyss. My abyss is anxiety and depression. I have noticed I don't want to leave my house and won't go in certain stores or restaurants. So two days ago I called my doctor and thankfully he had a cancellation yesterday! It seems I am needing to take my medication that I can take as needed...I need right now. So he said even if I am at home and I might not feel anxious...take that medication regularly anyway. Same as my sleeping medications. He said to take it every night. Wise council as I slept so well last night! emoticon

I see my therapist tomorrow and then weekly after that. I know I need the medication to keep me stable, but I the talking and the support from my therapist is very helpful.

Don't get me wrong. I have many friends, but I find that my friends can't always be objective with me nor me with them. We want things to go well with and for them. They want the same for us. My therapist is objective. He can step back and look at the situation that is bothering me without wanting to please me by saying what I want him to say. emoticon

Today I am having lunch with a friend and going to her house to visit. I don't see her very much. To let you know how much I really see her...she is my barber. She cuts my hair about once every 5 weeks and less in the winter. That is sad that is the only time I see her. She is busier than I am, so I work around her schedule. So glad it worked out this week!! emoticon

Well, I feel better after getting off this off my mind. Don't feel bad for me. This is my life. We all have trials and challenges. This is one of mine. I feel really good that I noticed it this time and asked for help. emoticon

Have a great day. Remember...it is what you make it, so make it great!!

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    Hoping and praying all is well.

    So glad you got to spend that time with your friend, though. Have a good weekend!

    2663 days ago

    Your really have taken a big step....realizing that you needed help and asking for you. That is so wonderful and that is one of the reasons you are doing so well. I'm proud of you girl!!!!
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    You're growing and you just had a learning experience. That's a WIN, WIN, situation, in my book!!! Besides, if I didn't learn something everyday, no matter how little it may be, I would think that something was amiss!!!

    Be blessed,

    - Nancy Jean -
    2665 days ago
    While going to resturaunts may be uncomfortable right now, I am really glad that you'll be able to enjoy a long chat with your dear friend in the comfort of a home environment. Enjoy your day!
    2665 days ago
    the thing about a therapist - a good one will be very upfront with you; even brutally honest when needed.

    sounds like you have the help that you need, you are aware of what's going on with your moods, and you will seek help and follow the professional advice
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    I don't need a friend who changes when I change and who nods when I nod; my shadow does that much better. ~Plutarch
    2665 days ago
    I always learned that I can change my day anytime I choose. I pray, journal, workout, put on some music, dance with my grandchildren whatever it takes.

    Hang in there and glad you shared.


    2665 days ago
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