Thursday, November 14, 2013
This past week I have been totally overwhelmed. I have been slipping into the abyss. My abyss is anxiety and depression. I have noticed I don't want to leave my house and won't go in certain stores or restaurants. So two days ago I called my doctor and thankfully he had a cancellation yesterday! It seems I am needing to take my medication that I can take as needed...I need right now. So he said even if I am at home and I might not feel anxious...take that medication regularly anyway. Same as my sleeping medications. He said to take it every night. Wise council as I slept so well last night!
I see my therapist tomorrow and then weekly after that. I know I need the medication to keep me stable, but I the talking and the support from my therapist is very helpful.
Don't get me wrong. I have many friends, but I find that my friends can't always be objective with me nor me with them. We want things to go well with and for them. They want the same for us. My therapist is objective. He can step back and look at the situation that is bothering me without wanting to please me by saying what I want him to say.
Today I am having lunch with a friend and going to her house to visit. I don't see her very much. To let you know how much I really see her...she is my barber. She cuts my hair about once every 5 weeks and less in the winter. That is sad that is the only time I see her. She is busier than I am, so I work around her schedule. So glad it worked out this week!!
Well, I feel better after getting off this off my mind. Don't feel bad for me. This is my life. We all have trials and challenges. This is one of mine. I feel really good that I noticed it this time and asked for help.
Have a great day. Remember...it is what you make it, so make it great!!