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Tuesday, November 19, 2013

I've been somewhat of a hermit lately. Tomorrow's my birthday, and I cannot help but wonder how far I've come along over the past year.

On the one hand, I finally moved out of my previous apartment. That place was awful. But this new place has taken a long time to get accustomed to, and I can't believe my lease is up in January. I have every intention on renewing it but still, I can't believe how fast time flies.

My Aunt Joyce passing put so many things in perspective for me, and I miss her more and more every day. A piece of me went with her when she died. I saw her death coming, though, and that's what prompted me to join SP.

Furniture pieces are strewn all over my living room floor. My weekend project. I took Friday off, to give myself a 3-day weekend as a present for turning another year older. Sometimes I look in the mirror and put myself down. I have a long way to go.

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DDOORN
It's not the days in your life that matters...but the life in your days!

Don
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MADEIT3
Giving yourself a chance to be sad will help you accept the losses in your life and move forward. The important thing is to keep fighting the good fight. My little joke with myself is that no matter what I do, I'm never going to be 5'7" with long blond, straight hair. I'm just an ordinary looking person. Despite that, I have a wonderful life with a wonderful man who loves me to distraction (he's no great looker either, btw, but that isn't really important). My job, as I see it, is to do what I can to be as healthy as I can be, and that means maintaining a healthy weight.

I hope this helps you to move forward. Enjoy the day off you've given yourself and make the apartment your own!!
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IMLOCOLINDA
Death of a loved one prompts many changes in our own lives...we question our own mortality, reason for being and of course, the longing for more time. But be gentle with yourself, Danielle. You're young and have a long life ahead so get yourself healthy and fit so that your beloved Aunt Joyce would be proud of your progress. I'm sure she was proud of you no matter what but self-pity is not what she'd want for you. Do the best you can. I'm glad you're putting together your furniture and planning on creating a lovely home for yourself. Happy you are able to give yourself the gift of an extra day...now celebrate YOU and LIFE and not only renew the lease, renew the lease on life!! I promise it does get easier, the tears get less and your loved ones are always near you, cheering you on.
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FLAGLINDA
You are still marching on so give yourself credit for that. Its so easy to just say the heck with this lifestyle change!! But you haven't done that so for you!! I know we are always hardest on ourselves, but treat yourself as you would a cherished friend. What would you say to this friend? Be kind to yourself! Take one day at a time. I set 10 lbs goals. I too have a long way to go but pound by pound we can do it!!
Give yourself the most important gift of self acceptance and love.
Happy Birthday! I hope you have a wonderful day
2622 days ago