When I was younger....
Sunday, December 29, 2013
When I was younger and used to picture myself as older I never saw myself past the age of 28. I turned 26 in August. Part of me thinks if I continue how I have been going with my life (health-wise) I won't make it to 29. I know this sounds silly but it also makes sense to me. I've definitely tried dieting before and would lose some weight but would never let myself continue long enough to lose even a dress size. I just weighed myself and am at 300.4 pounds. I don't remember where I was at when I stopped spark people the last time, but I do know that I have been heavier than I am now. To be honest I was not expecting the number to be that low.
I currently work as a server at Cheddars. The worst part about working at a restaurant are the hours. Most people would say the temptation is unbearable. But I only eat after my shift and only drink water during my shift. The hours make it so that everyday I am eating at different times and do not always sleep at the same time either. Sometimes I don't get to eat until midnight.
I'm definitely looking to help myself this time around. I know that in the past I am the only thing that has gotten in my way. I won't let that happen again. I'm going to be a friend to myself. I'm going to be my own motivator! I know I am capable of becoming the person I want to be inside and out. I'm ready to begin the rest of my life!