Last year I was a bit late - forgot the date completely actually. This year I'm two days early but perhaps that's because it's a landmark. 10 years ago on the 4th of January I said "enough".
10 years ago I had just come off a holiday eating binge that had me heaving in disgust. I remember making a batch of white chocolate and raspberry scones and eating so many as they came from the oven that there weren't enough left for my guests. My mother had made a pound of butter into shortbread cookie dough before she left us for her home and I ate every single one of those frozen, unbaked cookies in less than 3 days. There seemed to be no satisfying my voracious appetite and I knew, deep inside, that I was starving for something that wasn't food.
10 years ago, I looked at the obese 221 lb woman I had become and knew that something had to change. So, I started to change. I've documented my slow and steady approach through many previous blog posts so I won't describe it here but I recall one thing that it so important:
I wanted to lose about 50 lbs. I wanted them gone in a month. It felt like it would take forever to lose 50 lbs. FOREVER! And it was so hard! And it was going to take forever and the whole thought of it was so daunting and overwhelming and depressing that I almost quit many, many times.
It did take forever - 5 years to lose 85 lb because, in the end, that's what I really needed to lose. But the most important thing is this - it took forever. But that time passed anyway. And it passed one day at a time. That's it - just one day at a time.
Every day - every, single day - I get up in the morning and pledge to take care of myself as best I can today because today is the only day I have and this body deserves me to take as good care of it as I can. And, before I've had a chance to blink and think about it, 10 years has passed. One single day at a time.
So - here's to me!
! Here's to Lorna c. January 4, 2004 who said "enough is enough"
Here's to all of us who strive to make our bodies and hearts and minds a better place to live!
Here's to everyone coming here today knowing "enough is enough"
It's not easy - just know (and celebrate with me) the fact that it can be done.
Happy New Year everyone!