Giving up a responsibility I love for a better quality of life?
Wednesday, January 08, 2014
I had to give up my care-taking of Mrs. S. or at least for now. It broke my heart and hers, but I have been in a flare since having the flu and in so much pain that I cannot even sleep at night. I toss and turn unable to lie comfortably and only manage to doze off and on. Lack of sleep only keeps making flares worse with FM. I've been having such a hard time managing even the things at home and my body will just not allow more. I'm really at a loss for how to handle this decision because Mrs. S. and I have such a good relationship, it is something I really enjoy doing, and she already wants me back. Maybe I could take some time to get myself built back up and try again. I hate letting people down. I'm just praying for the right answers right now. On the one hand, it is so much harder on me and it could free up some time, energy, and quality of life to focus more on my own needs, but on the other, it simply doesn't feel right to me at all. I know I will miss it.
On the home-front...Todd's job is going well, but he's having a hard time adjusting to 3rd shift and he's been sick. God love him though, he just keeps going anyway. I made him some yummy home-made chicken noodle soup tonight for all that congestion. I couldn't find my recipe so I just went from memory and had to wing it the best I could. He loved it and I have to admit it turned out to be better than my recipe. I know it was perfect for these cold days and nights we've been having. Well off to spend some time with my honey before he leaves for work. (At least he's finally off tomorrow night!) Gonna do some home-work tonight too before bed.