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Giving up a responsibility I love for a better quality of life?

Wednesday, January 08, 2014

I had to give up my care-taking of Mrs. S. or at least for now. It broke my heart and hers, but I have been in a flare since having the flu and in so much pain that I cannot even sleep at night. I toss and turn unable to lie comfortably and only manage to doze off and on. Lack of sleep only keeps making flares worse with FM. I've been having such a hard time managing even the things at home and my body will just not allow more. I'm really at a loss for how to handle this decision because Mrs. S. and I have such a good relationship, it is something I really enjoy doing, and she already wants me back. Maybe I could take some time to get myself built back up and try again. I hate letting people down. I'm just praying for the right answers right now. On the one hand, it is so much harder on me and it could free up some time, energy, and quality of life to focus more on my own needs, but on the other, it simply doesn't feel right to me at all. I know I will miss it.
On the home-front...Todd's job is going well, but he's having a hard time adjusting to 3rd shift and he's been sick. God love him though, he just keeps going anyway. I made him some yummy home-made chicken noodle soup tonight for all that congestion. I couldn't find my recipe so I just went from memory and had to wing it the best I could. He loved it and I have to admit it turned out to be better than my recipe. I know it was perfect for these cold days and nights we've been having. Well off to spend some time with my honey before he leaves for work. (At least he's finally off tomorrow night!) Gonna do some home-work tonight too before bed.
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  • WRITINGRUNNER
    I hope you're feeling a little You have to prioritize yourself and your health. Other people understand that. Take care of yourself x
    2233 days ago
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    Monica you are doing the best that you can right now while going through what you've described in your blog. I hope you feel better so you can go back doing what you enjoy.

    Take good care of you my friend!

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    Glad your soup turned out. emoticon
    2233 days ago
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    I understand about the flare...I had a terrible time getting things regulated while I had the flu....it was over a month of illness and increased pain...am just now getting things back to normal. .
    Night shift is soooooo hard....i am sorry to hear that Todd is sick....night shift is not known to make one feel good.
    With fibro you MUST take care of yourself and learn to pace yourself...this is very hard as most of are type A's and want to push push push to get things done.
    I hope you start feeling well soon.
    2234 days ago
  • TWESTEN1
    Yep, it's hard to make big decisions like that, but you are right - you need to take care of yourself first and get yourself healthy and non-hurting again. Take it a day at a time. Maybe this is God's way of letting you know you need to slow down :)

    Sorry Todd is sick, but glad he is liking his new job. Changing shifts like that is tough - hard on the body. Hope it gets easier for him.

    You hang in there. Get yourself better!
    2235 days ago
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