Back At It
Thursday, January 23, 2014
Since my last entry I have moved across the country. I can say my eating habits have stuck with me. I have maintained my weight for two years now. I am 139lbs! Fitness is better than a couch potato but not as good as a can be. I am currently homeschooling three of our four kids. I swim 20 laps on Fridays when the have swim lessons. I have just joined the couch to 5km run program. I am not consistent with exercise and I am more successful with a partner. I am realizing that I need to have more intrinsic motivators for my life. I depend far too much on encouragement from others. Which may not sound too bad but when the cheering section is quiet I tend to fade. I am far too fixated on the scale. I have not bought myself new clothing thinking I will deserve it when I achieve my goal weight. Flawed thinking. Actually this process has illuminated my low self esteem. I joined a local rec centre. I am too shy to go to the gym yet I desperately want to start weight training. I have anxiety working out in front of men. I am just being open, perhaps opening up my Kimono will free me up to get past my hang ups. I came back on here and read through my goals I first set. I have stuck with nearly all of them. I drink lots of water, my portions are better, I wake up to peppy music, in fact that has really helped me start the day with a spring in my step. I have returned to Spark to rev up my fitness and fine tune habit changes. My goal is no longer weight loss(would be nice) but to get fit and be confident with my body.