Tuesday, January 28, 2014
I woke up today with a renewed feeling of confidence. Although I did eat that cookie last night, I only ate one. It took a lot for me to say no to another one, but I did it. It makes me realize that I can control myself. I want this to be a lifestyle, not a diet. I need to be able to mange what I eat and not be a prisoner to it.
I saw my doctor last week, and she says that I'm doing fine. My blood pressure was really good, and everything else is on track. She is happy with my current progress, and wants me to continue as I have been. My eating style is low fat, low carb, lots and lots of veggies, limited sugar. I've been using the Hungry Girl "expanders", and it helps me so much. I like to eat a lot of food, and using her low calorie expanders helps me do that. I just load everything up with a huge amount of veggies, and it makes my portions seem huge. It's really helped me maintain control.
I still want to binge. I'm not sure why but the feeling never goes away. Even when I know I'm full, I still feel hungry. It's a mental hunger that stays with me. I hope that as I lose weight, and gain control, that feeling will begin to dissipate. I pray that it will get better.