Friday, January 31, 2014
Although I know it is viewed as a cop out when we blame our parents for things we have wrong with ourselves today but I can honestly say my weight problems began with my mom. I was very slim as a child and she constantly pushed food on me until I was overweight. Then came years of pushing food or withdrawing it from me and putting me on diets. She herself, kept herself slim and I was never considered attractive by her because I was overweight. Example, my sister was slim so she kept her graduation dance photo. I have never seen mine since it was taken.
Now that my mom has dementia she has laid off the comments regarding weight and controlling my food intake. That was until last Wednesday. She had a bowl of soup and a sandwich for lunch. When my sandwich came she exclaimed loudly so that the whole restaurant could hear that it was enormous (couple that comment with a massive intake of breath). It was a normal sized sandwich but her comment made me leave half.
I honestly thought I had come to terms with my food issues and my mom but even at 95 years of age she still has the ability to punch my buttons. I should have eaten the sandwich with gusto and enjoyed every bite.
All I can say is that I am so thankful that I didn't pass any of these awful food issues on to my two boys. I don't want anyone else to shoulder that kind of dysfunction.