Surprise Feeling of Victory
Thursday, February 13, 2014
Yesterday, I went bra shopping. Yep, most of you can probably identify with the terror of this matched only by bathing suit shopping. The mirrors were not kind to me. I was also not kind to myself. My sister gasped at the $500. price tag of a bathing suit to which I responded, "Well I am not putting a $500. swimsuit on a 5 buck body!" I have gained weight from my all-time low a couple of years ago, and I was feeling every pound and inch. Because I work out so much, I also had a bit of a pity party too! My eating habits are still so much better than they were - wah, wah, wah!
Anyhow, today I had a turn around and now I feel great. While in personal group training I noticed that so many people in the group cheated when left to their own devices when doing reps. I wouldn't dream of cheating, I would be cheating myself. Then I noticed myself and only one other person were lifting heavier weights. The final thing was I can now do full-length pushups from my feet not my knees. Today, between each push up I had to tap the alternating shoulder. I completed all the reps of these. When I was surprised my trainer said, "Why are you surprised? You come here regularly and are getting stronger because of it." I don't really compare myself to others but I looked around to get some sort of gage of my progress.
What an emotional roll coaster weight and body image presents! One day I am down, next day up!