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April 16 2014 There is a Season for all things. Change is Important.

Wednesday, April 16, 2014



I am changing everyday. My Dad who I have not seen since January said to me the other day. You sound changed is everything OK. Yes and no on everything being OK Dad. There are so many things I wanted to tell him that day but for me this was NSV because my father and I have always had a hard time connecting since I got married. Change is exciting and Good, Painful ,Confusing but a necessary thing.



There were no treadmills available today so I Added a set to todays things I did of ( Ball Ab crunches .) I have to admit ," I Hate" working out my core." I hate it ....... I see my little nose wrinkle up and my braids toss as I fold my arms stubbornly over each other and shake my head NO.... NOPE I WILL NOT WORK MY ABS. This is all in my minds eye of course of me being stubborn as a child. My inner child is still quite stubborn about such things. But I am a grown women and I am the Boss chickie poo so get on that ball and crunch.



It was not easy. I was embarrassed and a tiny bit Insecure. I look like I am at least six months along and my shirt of course kept popping up. It felt like a lot of work but I am not even a tiny bit sore so I know deep down inside I need to work those abs harder. I know I want them to be stronger so I can do a real sit up again in the next year. I know a Strong middle section will be a big difference in how I see myself and my self esteem.



On this Journey I think it is important to really dig deep and figure out some of the internal things that have gotten me the way I am so that I can correct them . Also so I don't repeat them. I not sure how I let my middle get so out of shape except for many years of not consistently eating well and working out. Also I think after my third daughter (who is turning seventeen in a couple of weeks ) I was Hoping ........ for another child or two. I just never have felt like my family was complete. So somewhere unconsciously I think my round belly made me hopeful that I would have a reason to have a swollen abdomen. I suppose it is never to late but since I have never done anything to keep from having another baby I just crack it up as not meant to be. I am so Blessed to have each of my daughters. Time for me to get my abs back in shape as I wait to be a first time Grandma sometime this fall. There is a Season for all things right.

Anyway this ended up way longer than I planned. Hope you all have a Great day.

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  • LIKINMENOW
    What an honest blog! Wish more people were like you. Thank you for this because right now I feel a lot like you do.

    I am sorry to hear about you and your dad not being able to connect. Prayer can help that out I am positive.

    Keep working on you and continue to change and bloom into that beautiful woman who is waiting to come out.
    2415 days ago
  • LACEYKYLE
    I know what you mean about the belly. Even when I was thin, it was a sore subject. I look back at pictures and don't understand why I still wasn't happy. We have to learn to love ourselves the way we are and anything beyond that is extra. Bless you!!
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    2416 days ago
  • IGNITEME101
    This is such an important blog! Thank you for posting it! Della
    2416 days ago
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