Nighttime blog 5-5-2014
Monday, May 05, 2014
Today was pretty epic. Michele and I went out for lunch, then grocery shopping. It was like old times. Old old times, like I felt 23 years old again. She's so radiant these days. It's taken her months to shake off the pallor, anxiety, and sort of cringing vibe she had all those years with her ex. We were talking about friend-culling, in light of all the recent drama, and she was saying how when she divorced Kenn, she divorced most of her old friends too. "When I got rid of him, I looked around and got rid of everyone else that made me feel bad about myself." God, I love her. I didn't even realize it, but it explains why we've been hanging out more. She's gets the best friend title, because we've been together since we were 17. I've always sort of worshiped her a little, she's so much cooler than I am. But then, I feel like that about most of my close friends. I look around, and think, "where do I get off, being surrounded by such amazing, smart, powerful, and friggin cool people!?". I'm so lucky.
Today's card was from the Thoth deck, 7 of Wands, Valour.
It speaks of entering into a tough situation, knowingly, and standing strong. Well, we went to Panera, today. I did not go full bore. Then we went to Trader Joe's, and I didn't go nuts either. Looking through the frozen dessert section at TJ's, I had an "Eris take the wheel!" moment, but I endured. With valour.
This card turns my usual "should I get the mint chip ice cream?" inner monologue into something way more than it is, haha. I didn't get the ice cream, incidentally.
Tonight, I'm going to pull a card in regards to tomorrow. I'm going to try to get into a nighttime routine, from here on out, but lets face it, any routine, even a day/night/whenever one is good, amiright? Plus, I like the idea of scoping out the day ahead of time, instead of pulling a card and reflecting on it.
For Tuesday, I got Thoth, 4 of Swords, Truce.
Tomorrow, I have off, and Luiz wants to go see Spiderman 2. Yawn. Normally, the only way he gets me out to comic book movies is through bribery and taking me to the *good* theater, the Fork & Dine one, with recliners and bottomless popcorn. I'm going to have to work around that, somehow. There is no way under the sun that the amount of "buttered" popcorn I normally shovel into my face, to anesthetize me through yet another boring ass comic book movie is healthy. The things I do for love. Maybe I'll have him take me out for a huge salady lunch ahead of time, and stuff myself so full of chicken and greens that I can't even think about popcorn. I've also got to make time to make 24 pounds of soap. These are the things on my mind, regarding tomorrow and "health and wellness" which is the category for all these daily draws. So, chances are, I'll handle everything well, and be easy about it all. I'm seeing a restive, confident state, very cool and yet still going with the flow. The image is four swords spinning on an axis, it's all very balanced and efficient. That makes me feel good.