Nighttime blog 5-6-2014
Wednesday, May 07, 2014
Of course I can't sleep. Getting up bright and early tomorrow to bring Jasper to the vet for shots, then taking my mother out. The neighbors next door are getting their house lifted or something, so they have to shut her electric off. Being trapped in the house, unable to drive, with no electricity will make her insane. She's not much of a reader. So, I promised to take her out all morning, and for lunch, then when I go to work, her friend Tony is taking over. I really do feel for her. She's very depressed and lonely. Today she had me on the phone listing names of her friends back in Spain, and all my godparents, then all their pet names for me. I can hear such sadness in her voice, when she talks about the good times with my dad. They still love each other, both of them.
Today, we didn't wind up going to the movies, so that was a relief. I did muster the energy to do the soap. Overall, it was a positive day, Alden got accepted into the culinary program offered through Brookdale, and we're all so excited for him. If there were a program available like that when I was his age, things may have been very very different for me. The boy has direction, now, he's setting his feet on his life path. I *still* don't have direction. Ah well, when I look at him, I know I did something right, at least. He's a great kid, and really growing into a good, solid man.
For tomorrow's card(s) I got a jumper. From the Thoth deck, Art, and the 6 of Swords, Science.
Huh, my two favorite things, ever. It's showing me that knowing what to do is good, but doing it is better. Putting everything I read and think about and study into action, for my health. I'll be honest, I think I'm just coasting along, foodwise, doing not great, but not terrible either. I always say "I barely touch fast food" but I notice that I've been forced to eat out more than I like, because of work, and our schedules, so I'm really trying to work around that, and be more mindful of the day. There is just about nothing worse than driving home from work, feeling shaky from hunger because I haven't eaten in 7 hours, and hitting the WaWa or Taco Bell on the way home. I need a routine. I definitely haven't been active enough.
Maybe tomorrow's busy day will kick me out of this blah feeling, and get me more motivated to move around. Actually, it's going to have to. Every day from tomorrow till next Wednesday will be chaotic. Then a short break, then pure chaos through June. Then probably just enough of a breather to get ready to move in July. I got this. I don't feel anxious about things. Maybe tomorrow kicks off a phase of that frantic run-run-run mentality that sort of energizes me.
Here's hoping I can cram the vet, taking my mother shopping, then grocery shopping, lunch, work, and making turkey chili into the hours between 8 am and 8 pm tomorrow. Or if not, here's hoping I don't forget anything too important, or tick anyone off.