Good morning SparkFriends,
I binged yesterday! Yeah!
I know it sounds paradoxical but even if it bothered me yesterday evening while I was consciously overeating, I knew I was about to experience a breakthrough. And I did!
I need to say it was a very successful binge
- it numbed my feelings (I felt scared of going back to ballet after such a long break - more than 2 months...)
- it kept me awake (thanks to the sugar in the strawberry jam I only went to bed at 3am - so of course I would feel too tired to go to ballet in the morning! Yeah! What a great idea!)
- it was also a success considering that, beforehand, I would not feel any discomfort at all when binge-eating. Now I sure can! Oh dear...
- it helped me see beyond my short-term feelings (feeling ridiculous in my ballet class) to the long-term ones. Indeed, even if I love my ballet teachers and my fellow ballerinas, I've always known that going to a 3-hour long class on Saturday mornings was not for me (apart from going to work, the doctor's or occasional races, I can't stand having regular appointments - they feel like prison to me).
Solution: I'm going to give the remaining lessons on my card to my friend who first introduced me to the class. No more stress! A happy friend!
- it connected me to my family ('Where's the bread?' 'How come there's no more butter?' 'I want some strawberry jam!')... ok, like a cat scratching the furniture to get attention but that's the best I could do at the time. Today, I've come up with several solutions! Yeah!
If you've read my previous blogs you know I've been working on adding more fun into my life, so that fun would replace food as my go-to activity. It's been working but I've begun to realize that it was not enough. For those of you who listen to the Inside Out Weight Loss podcasts you may recognize the self-correcting strategy Renée Stephens calls 'first line of defence' - renewing activities we can do on our own.
I used to have a simple poster with a picture corresponding to each favourite activity that helps me regain my balance. Now I've decided to incorporate them into my daily schedule as rituals. So I made up a new form. And to adopt new healthy habits, I'm going to play the Pleasure Point Game, trying to collect as many points as possible by having fun all day long. I'll simply tick each activity on my form once I've done it and then I'll add up all the points on a grid. Obviously, DS10 likes that idea a lot and that makes me proud and happy!
Yesterday evening I understood it was time to move on to the 'second line of defence', the one that involves somebody else. So I'm drawing up lists of the things I like to do with each member of my family. For instance, I like riding buses with DS10, I like dancing with DS3 while I like watching TV series with Hubby (have you seen the British series Sherlock with Benedict Cumberbatch? I love it!).
However, I also wanted something that would connect all the members of my family. And the boys gave me big pointers to that! I've found it! Driving back and forth to my late father-in-law's flat, Hubby ended up listening to a radio called 'Rires et chansons' which plays music and comic sketches. We had fun listening to Gad Elmaleh for example! If you're not familiar with him, here's an extract from one of his show:
And my son now watches popular videos on the net like Cyprien or Norman. www.youtube.com/
They make us laugh! I hope you'll share the laughter!
Now I get it! I finally understand what Renée Stephens has been saying about laughter being a great healer! It's also a connector! So, guess what: I'm now drawing up a list (yep, another favourite of mine - writing lists) of things that make my family laugh.
What about you? What makes you laugh?
Thanks for reading! Have a great day!