Do These Really Fit Me? XD
Tuesday, May 20, 2014
The lack of pants I can wear without a belt led me to hit the local thrift store on Thursday for some additions to my wardrobe. I was pleasantly surprised to find myself fitting into 14s now - I came away with 5 pairs of pants, and every time I go to put a pair on, I find myself staring at the (relatively) tiny waistband, thinking, "There's no way my huge butt will fit into these!"
But it does. I guess it just isn't quite as big as it used to be.
I've been getting tons of compliments on my weight loss at work lately - people are congratulating me on how trim I'm starting to look, and sometimes when I catch a glimpse of myself in a store window as I'm passing by, I can kind of see it. But when I'm looking in the mirror, I still look so incredibly fat, I hardly see a difference at all. A quick Google search suggests that this is a common phenomenon amongst people who have lost a great deal of weight - it takes time for your brain to "update" the image it has stored of you. (And it works the opposite way as well, with people who gain a lot of weight seeing themselves nearly as trim as they'd once been). The logical explanation of it makes me feel better, but it's still a bit of a bummer not being able to see the changes that other people are seeing.
Still, I'm going to keep focusing on the positive things I CAN see - like the number on the scale, which recently told me that I'm a mere 20 lbs away from being at the high end of a healthy BMI for my height. Which is pretty remarkable - a year ago, getting down to 200 lbs seemed like almost too daunting of a task to take on.
I'm just going to keep on as I've been doing, and before I know it I'll be staring at the (relatively) tiny waistband on a pair of size 10 pants and thinking, "There's no way my huge butt is going to fit into these!"
But it will.