The SPARK is finally back!!
Friday, June 06, 2014
I've been MIA thanks to my back to back babies and Post Partum Depression!! Benjamin Gregory turned 9 months on 5/31 which is when I got my SPARK back!! I swear that I had every intention of being healthy during his pregnancy but I just didn't follow through!! I felt awful and miserable having a 4 month old and working full time so I just let myself go. Well Ben was born on 8/31/13 and I was due to go back to work the last week in October. I decided to give up my federal job as a medical support assistant! It was a dead end anyway. I hit a major depression and was just struggling with everything and having a lot of health scares. I had to go see a Pulmonary Doctor in January because an MRI showed something on my Lung-- well turns out it was nothing important. But the doc spent the entire time talking about my weight and having to diet and exercise--he just had this snide look and I had never seen him before-- I left crying and felt the lowest that I ever had!! I talked to my Primary MD and she felt horrible for how the Pulmonary MD made me feel-I stopped caring about everything and was just trying to make it day by day with my 2 little ones and the 3 bigger kids. I woke up last Thursday 5/30 and told my husband that I just can't take it anymore and that I needed to go to Costco and get the 2 year 24 Hour Fitness deal and we did. I went and activated it and on Saturday 5/31/14 I began this new journey to get back to the me that I want to be. I am tired of thinking that everyone is staring at my fat body whenever I leave the house!! I also want to have my husband be proud of who he is married too. One day it will happen--- well tomorrow is my first weekly weigh in since I started this -- 244 starting weight.......I will post tomorrow : wish me luck please!!