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tired of being so big!!

Monday, July 14, 2014

Well guys, here I am! I'm sad to say that after losing 80 lbs and going from 340-260... I've gained alot of it back. I've been yo-yoing between 304-310 for a couple months now :(. It's been so hard for me to get back on track that I wonder how I did it the first time!! But I know it was just as hard and I just need to stay focused. I can't believe I let myself fall back THAT much. All my hard work down the drain. I'm back being totally unhappy with myself and that little confidence that I had gained is completely gone. I'm barely fitting in a size 24 jeans anymore which sucks. I didn't want to have to buy a size bigger, I kept saying no for a long time, but I bought one size of 26 capris last week. And its depressing!! I don't want to be a size 26.. but I'm tired of all of my jeans being so tight, and I'm going to see Beyonce and Jay-Z tomorrow in Atlanta and I just really wanted to be comfortable! I am pretty excited about that!! But my friend I'm going with, we made a deal months ago that we were gonna lose weight for the concert and neither of us did :(. I'm also going to the beach in a little over a month which I'm totally not ready for. Yesterday I literally layed on my bed and cried because I felt so discouraged.. sometimes I feel like I'm just gonna be huge forever. But It's that time of the month for me soooo... I'm a little over emotional lol. One good thing is I did start drinking Shakeology about a week ago. My beachbody coach said it takes a couple weeks to really start feeling the affects from it, so Ive been drinkin it every day and patiently waiting! Anyway, if you are still reading this, thank you for listening to me!! Any encouragement or advice would definitely be much appreciated!!
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    Our bodies are inclined to fight for every pound we lose back--it's our way of self-preservation. It's not just you and it's not because you aren't trying. That doesn't mean that we are fighting a losing battle, it just means that we have to make conscious choices, not just while we are losing, but also while we are maintaining. I always tell my husband that the real work will start when I get to my goal weight! Hang in there and keep after your goal--one decision, one minute at a time!
    2425 days ago
    emoticon I know you can. Just have faith in yourself.
    This can be done, you done it once and you will do it again.
    Make it happen!
    2425 days ago
  • MSKIZ69
    You can do this!!!!! I am rooting for you!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon m
    2425 days ago
    You can do this! I feel your pain. I lost 216 pounds and gained 100 of them back! You've got this! Just take it one meal/one day/one workout at a time!
    2426 days ago
    I saw a quote on someone's SparkPage that said, "You cannot change the past, but you can start today and make a new ending." I really like that. You can't change what happened. I know it's discouraging, but you can't stay in that discouragement or it will suck you under. Focus on the positive. For one thing you have still lost at least 40 pounds from where you started and that's nothing to sneeze at! Second, you lost it once, you can do it again. You know what to do. It won't be easy but it will be worth it. Focus on living healthy and fit and the weight will follow. And remember, you are more than the numbers on the scale. emoticon
    2426 days ago
    Have fun at the concert!
    You are not doomed to be a size you don't want to be. It does take consistency and determination, but I know you have it in you!
    I gained back a bunch of the weight I originally lost on SP, and plateaued FOREVER, but I'm finally down 40 of those and almost at goal. It is very possible! Believe that you are worth it!
    2426 days ago
    I like shakes but I found by themselves they did not help me to lose weight. I only started losing when I upped my movement and exercises. I think it will take a combination and tracking on this site. I hope you enjoy your concert. I know you can lose the weight you want once you determine to go all out and track, track, track. it may be that tracking what you eat and the exercises you do will keep you from the emotional eating. Give it a try and let us know how it goes. emoticon emoticon
    2426 days ago
    I found your post through the 100 lbs in a Year team .. which is really quiet, btw. Thank you for being real! I know the folks who post about all the exercise, healthy meals, and other wise choices are just sharing their journey, too, but your post is a good reminder that everyone encounters storms before they see a rainbow.

    I'm frustrated today because, after my first week of being intentional in well over a year, I only lost one pound. So, I'm having to focus intentionally on the victories and not let itget me down .. or, not TOO far down.

    For the rest of the day, focus on what is good .. such as:
    * you haven't gained back ALL of the weight
    * you know how to be successful
    * tomorrow is a new day, with no mistakes in it

    Blessings on your head!
    2426 days ago
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