tired of being so big!!
Monday, July 14, 2014
Well guys, here I am! I'm sad to say that after losing 80 lbs and going from 340-260... I've gained alot of it back. I've been yo-yoing between 304-310 for a couple months now :(. It's been so hard for me to get back on track that I wonder how I did it the first time!! But I know it was just as hard and I just need to stay focused. I can't believe I let myself fall back THAT much. All my hard work down the drain. I'm back being totally unhappy with myself and that little confidence that I had gained is completely gone. I'm barely fitting in a size 24 jeans anymore which sucks. I didn't want to have to buy a size bigger, I kept saying no for a long time, but I bought one size of 26 capris last week. And its depressing!! I don't want to be a size 26.. but I'm tired of all of my jeans being so tight, and I'm going to see Beyonce and Jay-Z tomorrow in Atlanta and I just really wanted to be comfortable! I am pretty excited about that!! But my friend I'm going with, we made a deal months ago that we were gonna lose weight for the concert and neither of us did :(. I'm also going to the beach in a little over a month which I'm totally not ready for. Yesterday I literally layed on my bed and cried because I felt so discouraged.. sometimes I feel like I'm just gonna be huge forever. But It's that time of the month for me soooo... I'm a little over emotional lol. One good thing is I did start drinking Shakeology about a week ago. My beachbody coach said it takes a couple weeks to really start feeling the affects from it, so Ive been drinkin it every day and patiently waiting! Anyway, if you are still reading this, thank you for listening to me!! Any encouragement or advice would definitely be much appreciated!!