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Depression

Monday, July 14, 2014

Today... I had a harsh slap in the face. My reality has been set forth a head of me. I realized just why I am as fat as I am. Each month I've been spending approx. $500 on food on eating out vs. cooking home cooked meals for myself and family. I am so disgusted by this number that I realized I need help. Not only am I wasting money we don't have... I am making very poor choices for my own health. I am so disgusted with myself... I sat and cried. This is not who I want to be or become. I have been posting just a bunch of crap that people wanted to hear over the past several years... and I don't think I actually believed anything I typed. I think I was full of myself. Saying I would do all these things... and no end result. I can't keep doing this to myself and my family. I think I'm ruining my relationship with my husband. My kids are annoyed by me... I NEED to make a change and that change starts NOW.
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  • JLOSORIO
    Thank you so much for always being there. I still go through these extreme highs and lows fighting this battle. I guess I just haven't found my nitche. I don't know where to begin. I don't know how to stick to the program. I don't know what I am doing. I just know I want this so badly and I get discouraged so quickly. What was the one thing you did to keep you on the right track?
    2196 days ago
  • BLONDEDOG
    Awww, honey.....I'm so sorry that I didn't see this when you posted it. It is so hard to be honest, especially with ourselves. We wouldn't have any problem telling a girlfriend the truth....but we regularly lie to ourselves. Work on things one baby step at a time. Please do an update soon and don't hestitate to stop by my page and tell me to come read it, I'm not very good at checking my friend feed.
    2403 days ago
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