Brief, But to the Point
Wednesday, August 27, 2014
Generally I don't update this very much during the summer, since I don't usually get on a laptop or a desktop during it ... And last summer I killed it. I did so well!
But I've put on at least 15 lbs. in the last three months. I haven't been terrible, but I haven't been tracking, I haven't been getting back to Weight Watchers ... I would say it's been a struggle, but that would be a lie. I haven't. I don't eat awfully. I don't eat great but I'm not doing the huge binges I used to do.
The bonus is, I haven't lost sight of everything, and my boyfriend is awesome and trying to be healthier too. We run together. It's great. :) I'm starting with my running teacher buddies next Wednesday again, and we are going to hit the pavement three times weekly - Mondays, Wednesdays, and Thursdays. I'm excited. I'm doing another 10K this month, and then a 10K in November, followed by another half (not a trail though!) in December.
Not running regularly during the summer KILLED my mile time. It's not cute. :/ But I will get back to it! I love fall and winter for running, so that's what I will be doing. :) The bonus is I'll be moving in with my folks for a few months before Fred and I move up north, and my folks have weights, treadmills, etc. so if I don't feel like making the trek to the gym, there's no reason I can't. Oh, and a recumbent bike. That'll be nice.
I cannot let myself blow up again. I have a lot of plans for the next two to three years that will require me to be healthy and be in one piece. One of these plans is I want to have kids. I want to be able to do so and be healthy and have my child be healthy.
This isn't something that I will have to worry about for this year, but I know the more positive steps I take, the better.
So, on Monday, I'm going to weigh myself again. I will have a new starting point. Starting fresh. I'll be revamping this page to include a lot of stuff - and I'll be active on the boards again. :)
Actually, writing all this on here makes me feel so much better. I know it's probably silly, but I like being surrounded by awesome and positivity in a community that understands what it's like.
I'm grateful - this struggle has only come because I'm exceedingly happy. I have a great family, my brother is sober and healthy, my man is wonderful, kind and loving, my job is great and I'm teaching classes I love, my guard is full of kids who want to be there and want to do well ... So putting my health as number two instead of the number one it was is only because it is secondary to my happiness, if that makes sense.
So here we go. Round two.
I WILL NOT go back to where I was, or anywhere near. 15-20 lbs. is much more manageable than 120. No. Thank. You.