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Total Honesty

Thursday, September 04, 2014

It has been a long time since I have done a blog. Well today, I need to come clean. I haven't did so good staying away from the junk food. I have had a lot on my mind some real personal stuff and a few distractions with what once was what I thought was a close personal friend. We had a difference of opinion over reporting someone's comment one SP. I did not agree that it was offensive, since her comment was merely a question over a
SP article discussing menstrual cycles and hysterectomies. I really thought I had let go of this. I do forgive my friend for dropping me as her friend, but a situation arose and I needed to contact her, only to find my number had been blocked. So I had to email her with the information. Which was fine. I really don't know why this is bugging me about her blocking my phone number, but it is. I guess, even though I wasn't wrong in standing up for the other member and I still apologized for hurting this person's feelings 4 times. I just can't understand what I did so wrong to offend her. I let this eat at me today and bought some single serve cookies, only to find out there not so single serve. They actually have 3 servings to a single bag of those mini cookies. Whoo hoo, I thought I had ate 3000 calories today and was all bummed out. I really did not want to track my food, but I force myself to anyway to see what the damage was and guess what it really wasn't as bad as I thought it was. It wasn't good but not as bad as I thought "1915" total in calories eaten today.. Wow can you believe that. Good thing I got in 40 minute walk for a total of 2623 steps before the rain started in. I'll have to do double time tomorrow. And a whole lot of praying so God will walk me through this. I must remember to be humble and complacent at all times.
Thanks for letting me ramble on.
Love Always your sister in Christ
Jill
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  • DONNALEE-53
    Don't always blame yourself. Sometimes it really isn't us but we assume we are to blame.
    Cheer up and move forward and smile.
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    2414 days ago
  • JOHNWBROCKSR777
    This too will pass..,.
    2416 days ago
  • SYDLETZIII
    True friends agree to disagree and move on. Some friendships do not last. You will find and make other friends and you will succeed.
    2418 days ago
  • GENRE009
    SWEETIE DON'T ASSUME THAT YOU ARE THE GUILTY PARTY! Many times others don't deal with themselves, and how ridged they are. It is so much easier for them to walk away, or blame others! A mature person who truly cares for someone, tries to approach them and talk over the problem. What is interesting about your blog is that now you see how you deal with sadness emotionally, and that you also internalize that it's your fault! So you eat. I think that's why we all are on this site because we can't handle something in our life, family, friends, stress, abuse, or medical problems. I haven't talked to you in a long times because you haven't blogged or read my blogs. But that doesn't mean that I didn't understand who you are, or what your circumstances are. I think you are a very unselfish person, who is very honest & humbling! That person you feel so sad over, doesn't deserve the time you wasted grieving over your relationship with her. So please don't blame yourself like you are standing in judgment of yourself. you don't deserve to do this to yourself, because you are too sensitive, and sweet. I am sorry this happened to you. This site & club isn't free from negativity, sorry. eva
    2418 days ago
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