So I had some disruptions last week. My gym's been closed for maintenance, my son started school, we entered a new phase in our journey to be rid of our debt... I've been off my schedule and off the wagon.
Let me correct myself: I have been on a new schedule that I haven't quite figured out yet and off the wagon.
I've been eating pretty healthy, and I get plenty of exercise, but it's not the measured, purposeful kind of nutrition and fitness that keeps my mind on my fitness goals. Trying to realign my thinking to get my mind firmly back on my goals has been difficult. Really difficult. This is a process that requires focus, and I've been focused on other things. Now, I have to try to pull myself back into a new, body-loving routine that fits my lifestyle today; and back on this site. I've been somewhat absent.
Let me corrent myself: I've been absent.
As I said, though, I have been trying to eat well. I don't know if I've succeeded because I haven't tracked anything, but there was that voice in the back of my head. We're cinching in our fiscal belts again. I'm determined to be rid of our debt in the next year. For that to happen, we're squeezing our food budget like a stress ball. Beans and rice time, but in a healthful way.
I've also reorganized my home - lots of moving heavy furniture - in the last week, and we're selling a lot of things we've had in storage. I ride my bike or walk just about everywhere within 10 miles so that I'm not using my car. I'm trying to talk my husband into letting me sell the car, so I'm refusing to use it to counter his argument that I 'need' it.
But I know it's not enough to eat rice and take a walk. I have to be paying attention to what I'm doing, and I haven't been doing that. I have to pick up the weights. I have to push to walk faster, to run. I have to look at my body. So, I'm refocusing... again. And again and again and again until I reach my goals.