What I've learned....
Saturday, October 04, 2014
This was a trying week for me.
It was a week of trouble.... I had audit problems at the office and no management to assist. I know how to find information I know about, but how do I supply information on what someone else knows and why they do what they do .... am I wrong to think "take it up with them"? Problem is that in real life, when something goes wrong someone is gonna go down.... it's usually the one up top looking for someone under them to pin it on. Guess who's on the bottom --- ME. I've spent most of the week in search of missing documents that were last noted to be in Sr Managements hands. But they do not want to claim responsibility. I was so busy doing the work of everyone else that I had to put in overtime in order to do the minimum of mine.
It was a week of terrible.... new's that is. My daughter-in-law discovered a breast lump. Mammogram and ultrasound say she needs a biopsy. SOON to be scheduled.
My son (and significant other to the aforementioned DIL) has just been scheduled for hernia surgery on Monday. -- reality check --- if mom and dad are both in recovery, we (DH and I) will be assisting in more childcare and possible financial assist (have they figured out how to squeeze blood from a turnip yet... or does anyone know where I can find Peter in order to pay Paul =)
But let me tell you ... I'd rather focus on the much sought after week of TRIUMPHS. I was blessed and thrilled to see that while the HIGHER UPS wanted to blame someone and it looked to be me.... the support staff in my office surrounded me in love, support and compassion.... I really never knew that anyone there ever REALLY noticed me. It took a severe event like this in order for me to really recognize my value in others eyes. It was awesome to feel. I will hold onto that -- even if the bottom line is my being dismissed. I know I did my best -- with the help of those who care.
I will hold on to the truth that all thing are possible with GOD. He will give us what we need to deal with any expense, event, or adventure. He will be with my family during this time, as he always is.
AND Last but not least.... I have to give kudos to my DH. If he wasn't chauffeuring people from work, school, and doctors appointments, he was babysitting or on his knees praying..... but he was praying through all the rest too.
By Thursday I was a basket case. HE got me from work, took a 2 hour hike with me, selected a healthy meal for us to share at RED ROBIN in order for me to have the BLOODY MARY, and did everything in his power to make me smile and laugh and get ready to actually face a FRIDAY at the office. HE DID WELL.
Friday, compliance mostly left me alone to look at what information I was able to gather. Again our support staff team tried to show their support by brain storming to try and find solutions, resolutions, and possible positions to look into later =}
Friday night we didn't have the grand children...at first I was sad to hear that news. I was looking forward to a little child play. With dad limited to what he can do he was home to take care of them. But that was okay, because DH had better plans.
We took another walk after work but the focus was on US... DH didn't want me to focus on the week but rather our relationship. We made Crunchy Chicken Salad dinner. Then for dessert we had Boone's Farm Blue Hawaiian and played scrabble with CHEEZITS. We talked over candlelight for hours ( even on all the taboo topics.... sex, politics and religion). We talked about our past, our present, and our future and learned more in order to love more.
Life does have its nasty moments.... but I've found they are necessary in order for me to appreciate, accept and grow.
I LOVE MY LIFE!!!! THANK YOU to all it's participants =)