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I have a problem with alcohol....

Monday, October 20, 2014

July 30 days AF, August 19 days AF, September 21 days AF

9- 30 AF tred mill 7.0 miles at 3.5 mph and at 3% incline for 3.5miles!
10-1 mod 2/3 rds (750ml)bottle of cider dumped out the rest on 10-6!
10-2 AF tred mill... 7.0 miles at 3.5 mph and at 3% incline for 3.5miles! tired tonight
10-3 DD 2 pints of cider and 3 twisted teas
10-4 AF walked an outside track 7 miles in 2 hours. yeah!
10-5 DD 2 pints of cider 1 twisted tea then 3 beers at home...walked in the neighbor hood beautiful day.
10-6 AF tred mill 8 miles, 2 hours 18 minutes 3.5 mph with an average incline of 3% or so.
10-7 AF
10-8 AF tred mill 6.4 miles 0% incline very tired
10-9 DD 2 pints of 8% beer and 3 glasses of wine, sigh
10-10 DD 1 beer 8%, 50 ounces of 8% ciders festival food
10-11 DD 2 pints of cider and 2 x1.5 oz small bloody mary's
10-12 Mod 1 beer 8% beer, tred mill 7 miles 2 hours 0% incline
10-13 DD 32 oz of 8 % cidars in a short amount of time
10-14 AF walked on tred mill 9 miles 2 hours and 35 minutes
10-15 DD 32 oz of 8% ciders
10-16 AF walked on tred mill 3.6 miles in an hour
10-17 DD 24 oz of 8% ciders and 2- 6% beers
10-18 DD Tred mill 1 hour, 3.6 miles 1 glass of wine guzzled, 2 beers 8oz or 8% cider
10-19 DD 40 oz of 6% beer with a big meal Out of town then 1 beer at home


A lot of the time we are going out to eat and drink making bad food choices. Think of all of the money we are spending. I need to stop this madness. I am bipolar and have to think that this is messing with my meds, psychiatrist would be furious if she knew how much that I was drinking. I am mad at myself for it. I just can't seem to control myself. I have a walk coming this saturday. I want to walk tonight on the tred mill one more long walk and need to be level headed and feeling good. Did not sleep well last night.
I need to be AF this week.
bizi
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  • MELYROD18
    I am so sorry that you're having such a tough time. Don't give up, you can get through this my friend. Good luck on your walk!
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  • CAROL_31649731
    I can sooo emphathize. Lots of hugs being sent your way!!!!! Good luck . . . I'm always in your corner! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
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  • LETSGOPLAY
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  • MRTHING2000
    emoticon It is a struggle for many of us. It is a social lubricant and an escape. And it is addictive for many.
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  • WOUBBIE
    (((hugs))) Keep working at it, Bizi! You need to get back on a positive streak!
    2365 days ago
  • no profile photo CD2772872
    Bizi I am so sorry you are going through this. I know how hard it can be to get a handle on the drinking. For me, I fear I have done real damage to my stomach from drinking. Had drinks Saturday night and spent the day in the ER yesterday from vomiting for 12 hours from a few glasses of wine. I had to get three liters of fluid. I have never been so miserable.

    I know you can do this. You have done it before. You do inspire me and give me hope. Believe in yourself.

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    2365 days ago
  • ALOOGOBI
    I can certainly sympathize with your situation. For me it got to the point where I spent a lot of time worrying about how much I was drinking, planning on when I could drink, and trying to justify to myself how I "deserved" drinking days. It began to feel eerily just like the struggles I have with overeating.

    I ended up deciding to just give it up. I got tired of letting myself down, time and time again, because I was unable to control my intake once I had a drink or two in me. I got tired of thinking about it!! So now I just don't drink and it's a non-issue, and I don't have to be disappointed with myself anymore.

    I wish you the best on your journey, making changes can be hard but they can really be worth it! emoticon
    2365 days ago
  • LOVENHWOODS
    Thank you for your honesty...that took courage! You can do this...one day at a time!
    2365 days ago
  • LASARRE
    emoticon The first step is recognizing you want to change and you have.
    2365 days ago
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