As some of you may know, Ottawa, Canada, the city I live in, had a major event yesterday.
It is quite surreal to see Ottawa on CNN and NBC and all other American news networks. To make news worldwide is not something Canada is known for doing, unless of course it is for something like one of our stupid crack head mayors.
To be all over the Internet for a shooting taking place on our Parliament Hill is just bizarre. For Canadians, this is something that we see on TV and read about that happens to our friends south of the border. NOT us!
For me, what made it worse was knowing I typically work in the building right next door, yet I have been on sick leave since May so I wasn't there. My daughter's dad was and was in lockdown for hours...he wasn't allowed out until after 7pm.
My daughter suffers from severe anxieties so this was terrifying for her to see and hear about. Having her father be stuck right in the middle of it made it extra scary for her.
My son's father, who NEVER goes downtown happened to be sitting right nearby at a restaurant having breakfast with an old friend in town on business. He was in visual contact of everything. His wife, works downtown as was in lockdown as well, only not for as long. When I called to make sure he was ok, all I could hear were sirens and yelling. Very scary.
My son was at university, thankfully he doesn't go to the university downtown so I was confident he was safe.
My daughter and I listened to the radio from 10 in the morning until we went to bed, just hoping to hear that it was all over.
We saw videos that were taken and heard recordings as well, it was bone chilling to hear these shots ring off in a place that I commonly walk and visit with friends. The very grounds they were searching I have run many a time.
To think, I had just been in front of Parliament hill only a few hours before it all went down. CRAZY.
I suffer from PTSD and so this really freaked me out.
Today was easier, but it is still everywhere on the news and not all our questions were answered. Is there a second person they simply have yet to apprehend...nobody has confirmed or denied that yet, which raises suspicions as far as I am concerned.
My son who is pretty easy going is scheduled to go to a football game tomorrow evening. He is now fearful that this could be a place that something bad could happen at.
My daughter just sees this as a confirmation of why her anxieties are good.
I am stressed and saddened.
All this to say...I broke down, and had a Coke!!
But only one...and I will get back on my wagon and keep rolling tomorrow.