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"It is not what you eat, it is what is eating you"

Saturday, December 06, 2014

today has been a day not to sure of anything. Don't know how to do it, I have a love hate relationship with my weight I know I am not alone, but it still can bring me down to my knee in feeling not worthy of being a normal weight for me. I did get my emoticon and I am trying to keep walking more than ever before. I just have the blues and my back has been so bad. My moods are so down. And my middle daughter has been so sick I wish I could take her pain and wear it so she doesn't have to be sick. A good friend is also struggling her husband has been in the hospital for a year and a half. I would like to know how to make other better. I know I can only take care of myself and that I have done for 60 years come this Thursday the 11th of Dec. But I still would like to know how to make myself become a person that is able to be thankful for life which I am. but able to become the size I would like to become and still be able to eat. Which I am working on. I think which is hurting me is that I hurt for others and then I take it out on myself. When I know that I pray for others. But sometimes I need to be able to really understand why others have to hurt so much. anyway like my psychiatrists says " it is no what you eat, it is what is eating you". Words of wisdom. Thanks so much for listening to me.
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    You need to give it all over to God. You have no control over most of what you mentioned. He has. You have to trust that He will tend to these problems in the way that is best for those involved. Keep praying. Prayer is the answer. emoticon
    1904 days ago
    Sorry you're having a difficult time. It is nice that you love others, care about their problems, and want to help, BUT if you take on everyone else's pain and tend to them, it can sometimes cost you your own health. Please, be mindful of your own feelings and take care of you. YOU are worthy of some tender loving care, too.
    1904 days ago
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    Hang in there and keep Sparking. You'll find what works for you. You, your daughter, and your friend are in my thoughts and prayers.
    1904 days ago
    Total words of wisdom....
    I believe you can do this one day at a time......
    I understand what you nare saying about getting to the size you want to be....I usually get to within reach of it and then sabotage myself and still don't know why......

    I strongly feel you are a prayer intessor and you will others hurt.....when you realise that this is how you are wired by God it may help you/,....Just pray for them
    WE have a lady in our church just the same
    1905 days ago
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