2015...Once again Committed
Thursday, January 01, 2015
In looking back over the last few years on Sparkpeople, I really feel like I have wronged myself. Dreadfully.
The last few blog posts are at the beginning of the year, and the end of the year. Wanting to make it "the year". Then once again not coming back forever. Sparkpeople is how I lost 50 pounds in 2010, and I know I can do it again.
Crap happens, I guess. I have had so much emotional turmoil in my life the last two years, I haven't thought about me at all. Losing my mom in early 2013 to COPD, CHF and all the other fun medical issues that comes with obesity. I vowed then I would get down to at least my driver's license weight. I did well, and in the fall of 2013, I did it! I don't know what happened after that.
My dad moved in with me after my mom died. I took care of him, and my teenager, working full time and really not taking time for me. I started putting on the pounds, not going to the gym, falling into a depression.
By early spring this year, I had gained it all back. In June, my dad was diagnosed with Cauda Equina Syndrome and needed to have major surgery. I developed Plantar Faschiitis and lost my job at the end of July. I had to put my Y membership on hold, because I couldn't afford it. My dad's health deteriorated, and in November he passed away.
I haven't been on a scale in at least 8 months. I will do so tomorrow morning. I'm afraid, but determined. I plan to go back to school, starting on January 12. I also am going to head into the Y to find out what kind of plan I can get on with low income. I am not sure what types of exercising I can do with my Plantar Faschiitis. Some days it is hard to just walk. I am hoping I can get that under control.
In the end, it is my fault. I just need to keep on keeping on. Baby steps to start out with. I am not in a hurry, slow and steady wins the race. I am not trying to be skinny, I just want to get healthy!