Thursday, May 31, 2007
I'm 30, and will be 31 in August. I have never been thin, but I'm hovering around the heaviest I've been, and I don't like it. I've had many 'false starts' with getting back into a routine of staying in shape, but I'm really ready now to make a difference. Here are a few things that I think have influenced me, and have helped to get me where I am now (for better or for worse)
In 1992, I had to have my entire spine fused because I had scoliosis. Though it wasn't horrible, it really did bother me quite a bit, and would be especially stiff and very painful in the mornings when I'd wake up. At the time I was dating a guy who was very into health and fitness, and he finally talked me into going to a physical therapist, who put me into a 12 week program, where I was working out (focused on my back) 2x a week, and I was eating more healthy foods because I was dating a health freak. With really no effort, I was loosing weight. When I finished the 12 week PT program, I continued on with the same routine at a gym, and was amazed that i was loosing weight so easily. I think I went from about 210 to about 185. When he and I split up (me being overweight was one of the reasons he cited) it just motivated me to work harder, and I got down to the mid-high 170's and everything was going well. I decided if I was doing this well on 2x a week, I shoudl go for 3x, and that's when it all fell apart. I guess i get discouraged easily, and when I missed a 3x a week goal, I just sort of fell apart (i was also very busy, taking grad classes, and switching careers, moving from working with NASA to going back to teaching).
Slowly it all added back on, until I finally get fed up with it and joined another gym. I believe I weighed 211 when I started. I'd work out here and there, but never very solidly. I finally decided that I needed to do something. My back hurts a lot and I have some events coming up that I want to look good for (I'll get to those in another entry, I already think this is getting too long!) I bought a scale so I could chart my progress at home, and when I did this (I think it was the 1st of May) I weighed 206 (already down a little from when I switched gyms!)
I'm very bad about restricting things (as soon as I hear I can't have something, that's all I want!) but I figured I could add to what I do, and just try to cut back a little and make more wise choices, so I started drinking water. Lots of water. I found these big 1.5 liter Ozarka water bottles at Sams, and would drink one each day while I was at school teaching. At first it was hard and kind of a pian to finish it all, but after a few days, I really did feel better overall, and would actually crave water more than soda or other drinks. By just adding water, I noticed I was not as hungry, and as of tonight when I weighed myself, I weighed 198.8, which is down 7.2 lbs from my real start point, so that's encouraging.
I know I'm the type of person who has to start slow, because I get discouraged very easily, plus if I work out too hard, it really does hurt my back, since my muscles are weak. I am teaching summer school, and will plan on going to the gym straight from work each of the 4 days I teach, and I will continue drinking my big bottles of water each day (my students called it my water tower!)
My goal is 175, and i know i can do it, because i was practically there before with no real effort put into it, but just by being a little smarter about what i was doing. Once I see results, that's teh biggest motivator for me, and that will make me work harder... my problem area is the beginning when there are no immediate results apparent, but I want to tough it out and get thing started now. If you actually read all of this, let me know, I think you probably deserve some award for patience!! :)