It's always on my mind
Friday, February 06, 2015
I love food. I love eating it, I love cooking it, I love reading foodie blogs and looking at other people's food and reading about other people eating food, I love watching cooking shows, I love reading restaurant reviews, I love looking at online menus..... Yeah, I really love food.
So I am in my 12th week of this PSMF, which means 12 weeks of a very restrictive diet, and the whole time I have been thinking of food. I plan meals which follow my diet rules. I think of meals I can make my family that they will like but which won't be too tempting to me. I shop for groceries and consciously avoid sections with my favorites that I'm not allowed to have right now. I collect recipes for dishes that I'll be able to eat later when I'm refeeding and adding carbs back to my diet, and I daydream about what I'll eat then.
That last part worries me. It's going to take discipline and commitment to stick to a healthy maintenance diet when this PSMF is over, and I have not been disciplined about food my entire adult life before this PSMF. I am afraid I'll slip into old habits and slowly undo what I've managed the last couple of months.
I've been thinking that maybe I need to redirect some of the energy I'm spending on food to something else - maybe I need to love something else. Maybe I need to learn to love biking with the husband, or running with the kid, or wearing pretty clothes - something that will help keep my healthy or that will depend on my staying healthy.
Anyway, I need to come up with a plan. Have I mentioned I really love food?