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Death of a loved one can really turn your world upside down

Tuesday, March 17, 2015

I have been away from Spark message boards for about three months but in reality I have been away from Spark since dad died in September. It seems dads death and dealing with seasonal affective was way too much for me to handle. I see now looking back that I have been on auto pilot for the past six months. I have not realized anything going on around me and within me. My health has suffered greatly and I see how much work I have to do, I know I tell everyone that you never lose what you first learned and I truly believe that. I plan on using that knowledge to get back on track. I had much success with my knee surgery in Dec. I still have the pain but that is something I will have to live with the rest of my life - so I got to suck it up and move on. I have some really good goals motivating me right now. Dad and I were both history buffs. I started a huge Civil War research project after dad died and it has been something that has kept me busy. I want to be able to walk around Civil War sites and not be out of breath the whole time. I'm tired of being the one that has to go back to the car because I can't walk anymore . This is something I really want for myself and I'm willing to do the work necessary to make it happen. I joined three classes at the gym. I will be taking aquacise, zumba and yoga. It may sound like a lot to start off with but I know me. If I only do something on a part time basis i lose interest and end up not going anymore. If I go somewhere on a consistent basis that it becomes habit for me and I enjoy it a lot more. I want to make friendships and start to get out more and mingle with people. I am tired of being a shut in. This is my life and I am determined to live it before my time it up.
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  • BETRHO48
    emoticon Hi, Karin,
    Looks like you have a plan. Now all you have to do is follow it....No excuses!
    Love what you're doing. You can do it!
    2031 days ago
  • JUNEAU2010
    I said, without really understanding, when my dad died, I was not the same person afterwards. It is true. His death further fractured my life. It's a loss from which I don't expect to recover (it has been 10 years), but I do muddle on. Life goes on and I try, when I make choices, to make those that are good for me, ones that would make my dad smile. I hope you find your way... emoticon
    2038 days ago
    I'm so sorry about your dad! I lost my mom a year ago and it still feels like yesterday sometimes. I had a very hard time handling it.

    I think it's a wonderful tribute to him that you are working on this Civil War project and working on yourself. I'm sure he is smiling watching you take care of yourself!


    2039 days ago
    emoticon emoticon for your loss
    2043 days ago
    Good to see you! Best wishes to you
    2043 days ago
    emoticon Karin! Good to see you back! It sounds like you've got some good plans in place and you're ready to move forward. Good for you! You know you can do it!

    2043 days ago
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  • no profile photo CD14869212
    I am so sorry for your loss. It has been many many years since I lost my own father but I remember the pain and the deep deep grief. It took me two years before I stopped feeling acute pain and even then I grieved the loss of my grief (if that makes any sense). I am sure your father would have wanted you to move on with your life and live a meaningful life of joy even in his absence. I wish you all the best and lots of strength!
    2043 days ago
  • GORDON66
    I'm sorry for your loss. You've chosen varied workouts so you certainly won't be bored. Have fun with it!!


    2043 days ago
  • no profile photo CD15139181
    I'm sorry for your loss. It definitely does turn your world upside down. It sounds like you're on your way of turning it right side up again. Good for you!
    2043 days ago
    So sorry about your loss - and kudos to you for your strength of will to press forward and work through your grief and life challenges.........

    2043 days ago
  • RD03875
    My condolences to you. I know how you feel, my Daddy died 2 years ago and it still hurts.

    You CAN do this!
    2043 days ago
  • PICKIE98
    What a great game plan!! You CAN and will do it!
    2043 days ago
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