Death of a loved one can really turn your world upside down
Tuesday, March 17, 2015
I have been away from Spark message boards for about three months but in reality I have been away from Spark since dad died in September. It seems dads death and dealing with seasonal affective was way too much for me to handle. I see now looking back that I have been on auto pilot for the past six months. I have not realized anything going on around me and within me. My health has suffered greatly and I see how much work I have to do, I know I tell everyone that you never lose what you first learned and I truly believe that. I plan on using that knowledge to get back on track. I had much success with my knee surgery in Dec. I still have the pain but that is something I will have to live with the rest of my life - so I got to suck it up and move on. I have some really good goals motivating me right now. Dad and I were both history buffs. I started a huge Civil War research project after dad died and it has been something that has kept me busy. I want to be able to walk around Civil War sites and not be out of breath the whole time. I'm tired of being the one that has to go back to the car because I can't walk anymore . This is something I really want for myself and I'm willing to do the work necessary to make it happen. I joined three classes at the gym. I will be taking aquacise, zumba and yoga. It may sound like a lot to start off with but I know me. If I only do something on a part time basis i lose interest and end up not going anymore. If I go somewhere on a consistent basis that it becomes habit for me and I enjoy it a lot more. I want to make friendships and start to get out more and mingle with people. I am tired of being a shut in. This is my life and I am determined to live it before my time it up.