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Almost 1 year in...

Friday, March 20, 2015

and still like a yo-yo.

I'd finally lost 15 lbs. after almost 1 year. A couple people asked if I was losing weight. I was feeling good about myself, thinking that maybe the Couch To 5K program was what I needed to jump-start the weight loss a little more. I spoke too soon.

I weighed myself a yesterday ago and saw that I gained 5 lbs.

This is aggravating & frustrating. All I want to do is lose 40-50 lbs., and I've been trying since April 1, 2014. Goodness knows I'm not perfect because we all have our days, but you best believe that I've been doing my damnedest to lose weight. I'm sick of this yo-yo bull****. So since yesterday, I just haven't cared about what I ate. I just ate a 1 oz. bag of Doritos and 2 Reese's peanut butter cups a few minutes ago, as a matter-of-fact. And I'm allowing myself to do this because I'm fed up; normally I wouldn't, but I'm that fed up.

Maybe I'll get back to normal in a day or two. But right now, I'm being honest with myself - and you - and saying f*** it for now. Outside of starving myself, which I won't do, something has GOT to give.

I'm not writing this for advice or sympathy. I'm writing this in the hopes that getting it off my chest will help me move forward or something.

Have a good weekend.
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  • SPINSTER321
    BEACHCALSIX - thank you for your encouraging words.
    1835 days ago
  • BEACHCALSIX
    take a breather and get right back on track tomorrow. Take it slowly if needed. Just start with drinking more water at first, that alone reduces the amount of calories you eat and boosts weight loss immediately.
    After a couple days or even a week you can add exercise back in
    we're here cheering you on. I've had countless bad days/weeks where I just yell at myself and say "screw it. I give up" but an hour later or so after I've had my tantrum I drag myself back on track again and say "....ok....one more week" lol

    You can do it!!
    1837 days ago
  • SPINSTER321
    That's the thing - I haven't given up. This is honestly the first time that I've said f*** it, because even during the other times I got disappointed when stepping on the scale (which I only do twice per month), I still continued exercising & tracking & etc. I just need a moment to be aggravated & frustrated.
    1838 days ago
  • ARAZA30
    If you're tired of starting over, then stop giving up. Failing several times means you're trying. Don't give up now! It never gets easy but it's worth it in the end. Don't beat yourself up so much. We're only human.
    1838 days ago
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