Almost 1 year in...
Friday, March 20, 2015
and still like a yo-yo.
I'd finally lost 15 lbs. after almost 1 year. A couple people asked if I was losing weight. I was feeling good about myself, thinking that maybe the Couch To 5K program was what I needed to jump-start the weight loss a little more. I spoke too soon.
I weighed myself a yesterday ago and saw that I gained 5 lbs.
This is aggravating & frustrating. All I want to do is lose 40-50 lbs., and I've been trying since April 1, 2014. Goodness knows I'm not perfect because we all have our days, but you best believe that I've been doing my damnedest to lose weight. I'm sick of this yo-yo bull****. So since yesterday, I just haven't cared about what I ate. I just ate a 1 oz. bag of Doritos and 2 Reese's peanut butter cups a few minutes ago, as a matter-of-fact. And I'm allowing myself to do this because I'm fed up; normally I wouldn't, but I'm that fed up.
Maybe I'll get back to normal in a day or two. But right now, I'm being honest with myself - and you - and saying f*** it for now. Outside of starving myself, which I won't do, something has GOT to give.
I'm not writing this for advice or sympathy. I'm writing this in the hopes that getting it off my chest will help me move forward or something.
Have a good weekend.