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Monday, March 23, 2015

I never used to think about exercise. Didn't ever (except when getting my body ready for
DD's wedding) think about doing exercise every day. Now I do. And I DO count heavy cleaning as exercise if and only if I sweat while doing it! So whenever you see that activity...you know I've been working hard.

And something else too. I used to always think about getting as many sweets and bready carbs as possible. My scale was not my friend. Now it is. Even when I get on it after eating at a buffet and we know the salt content of THOSE FOODS!!!! Even then, I take the numbers as a sign of what action I need to take. Drink more...watch my calories more...exercise more...whatever action is necessary.

So although I would dearly dearly love to be able to eat as much food a my tummy would hold, I am no longer willing to suffer the consequences...nope, no more. And, that makes me sad sometimes...like today. Trying so hard to shake those blues....remembering the day I cried in the grocery store b/c I would not allow myself to buy croissants! Yes, I have to accept these emotions as part of my healing and part of my new life...and embrace them...and go on.

So onward I go.
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    Great job with sticking to your healthy lifestyle!! I admire your tenacity!! emoticon emoticon
    1031 days ago
    Well, there you have it - I use the scale the same way - just to be sure I never stray very far. and I too have grieved at the thought of not having food that is bad for me ever again. Fortunately, grief is a healing process too. I'm a lot calmer about Not eating junk food than I used to be. Perfect? No. but 80/20 anyway.
    1696 days ago
    Yup, I will always want to eat whatever I want whenever I want too.

    And it's too sad so bad that I can't. BUT I can't. Oh well.
    1797 days ago
    emoticon I can totally relate - it's a mental process that will be with us for our entire lives I'm sure.
    1797 days ago
    You are human. We are human. We have those days. It's good to let others know sometimes. Because they have them, too.

    1798 days ago
    Here's to embracing those blues and singing your way through them!
    1798 days ago
  • GABY1948
    emoticon and excellent description! I still keep lots of Beckisms around on stickies lest I should EVER forget.

    We HAVE this, you and I and we will always just PUSH through it. So, ONWARD we go! (WITHOUT looking BACK, if I might ADD)

    1798 days ago
    it's worth and and *you* are worth it!
    1798 days ago
  • _LINDA
    Yes it is so hard to give up those special comfort foods that never fail to call your name (hello pasta, perogies) Especially hard to see a scrawny person with a cart loaded up with your old favorites. I am a fast shopper, usually only needing to go to a few places in the store, so I skip a lot of the temptations. No bread, pastry, processed, etc. So pretty much produce and milk section and frozen fruit and/or veggies is it (I prefer them to canned to ensure no sodium).
    You have awesome willpower. You have learned your lessons well!
    High Five!
    1798 days ago
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    Yea, what a process it is. Still trying to get my head around it.
    1798 days ago
    emoticon Perfect description of the process... yes we grieve that we can't do what we want/eat the way we used to... but so true we aren't willing to accept the consequences any more! To health! emoticon
    1798 days ago
    Your right! You know exactly what to do. Join me in eating clean this week to get back on track! emoticon We are woman, we are strong!
    1798 days ago
    Good for you! Onward you go, ever evolving! I have never cried in the grocery store, but I definitely HAVE taken a tour around the store, looking at all the things I used to buy regularly but don't anymore...chips...baked goods, fried chicken, etc. Nope. Just don't do it. Thank goodness, LOOKING isn't fattening!

    Onward we go!
    1798 days ago
    Gosh, I totally relate to you emoticon But it's WORTH those sad days emoticon because we are HAPPILY healthy emoticon
    1798 days ago
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