Day 115 - Mixed Emotions

First of all, thanks to everyone for their great comments on yesterday's blog. I share everyone's feelings about Habitat for Humanity being a great organization that does such admirable work. It is such an honor to work for an organization to which I would gladly donate money. My first day went well - I felt that I contributed enough considering it was my first day.

Just after lunch Steve texted me to say that there was a message from my mom on Facebook that a dear friend of my folks (who I have known since I was in the 7th grade) passed away suddenly this morning. Bill was one of those guys that always cared about fitness, took care of himself, didn't drink or smoke, and just seemed so much younger than his almost 80 years. He was out working in the yard this morning, came in for a coffee and cookie break, then went back outside to continue working and collapsed. A neighbor performed CPR while his wife called 911, but he was gone by the time he got to the hospital. My mom and I had just had a conversation the other day about her fear that my dad would die before she did, because she didn't want to be left alone, and then this happens. It was a reminder that life is precious, but also fragile. We never know when our time will come.

Just as I was getting ready to leave the office at the end of the day, Steve texted me again to say that our buyers have backed out of the purchase of our house. This is the second time this has happened, and it is pretty discouraging. The saving grace is that we have a backup offer that is still very interested in the house, and so we have submitted a counter offer accepting their offer but adjusting the timeline and contingent on receiving the official cancellation from the other buyers.

The emotions got the better of me when I got home, after talking with my folks about the loss of their dear friend, and I ate a little ore for dinner than I should have. I don't feel guilty or angry, just acknowledging what "is." I had planned on getting a little more exercise in this evening after work, but the dogs have nestled into my lap after being left home alone all day, and frankly, I'm enjoying the cuddling. I'll get another workout in tomorrow.

Days like today remind me to keep my gratitude pledge. I'm grateful for life, love, family, and friends.

Thank you for your love and support always.