Dressing for success
Saturday, April 04, 2015
Last fall I discovered a brand of jeans that fit me extremely well, and I was thrilled that I was able to buy them in a size 8. Then I fell off the wagon and gained 30 pounds. The jeans I loved no longer fit, and I hated the ones that did. They really don't fit me well; the low rise was too low and the zippers wouldn't stay zipped up. I also had to wear a different bra size and hated those too; the strap adjustment kept slipping, dumping the girls forward. I was constantly pulling my jeans up, checking them to make sure the barn door wasn't open, and having to adjust my bra throughout the day. The worst part of this was the inner dialog. I felt dumpy and unattractive, and every time I looked at myself all I saw and felt was fat, Fat, FAT!
One of the things I realize is going to be critical for my long-term success with losing the weight I gained and keeping it off is changing that inner dialog. So I have started to tune into those thoughts that are not supporting me. For example, I changed my ticker to show how many fitness minutes I am achieving every month rather than pounds lost. The later would change so infrequently that it was discouraging, leading to frustrating thoughts of how long it was taking to reach my goal. With the fitness minutes tracker, I have the opportunity to reach my goal every month, which is much more empowering.
I also realized that my clothes were keeping me in a perpetual cycle of self-loathing, so you know what I did? I bought those jeans I loved in the size that fits me right now, size 12. And while I was shopping, I also decided to try a different bra. OMG, what a difference it makes having clothes that fit well, right now, at my current size and shape. I no longer dread getting dressed, and don't feel dumpy when I am. I am larger, this is true, and I am still working on getting my weight back to a healthy BMI. In fact, I'm more motivated to stay on track because I feel better about myself.