Contemplation on this weight loss journey
Tuesday, April 14, 2015
I started this journey after I had lost weight about 6 years ago, got off track and regained it plus more. I restarted on the 26th of November. Things have been going well and i had lost 10kgs a couple of weeks ago. I have regained 2 and maybe 3 i have not weighed myself for a few days.
My exercise endurance has increased significantly I went from walking a few thousand steps to jogging for 11 ks at a time which is great. But my eating is so off track right now. I am starting to eat stuff i had stopped eating and cannot seem to get back on track.
This got me thinking about this weight loss journey. Do I really want to loose 20 more kgs and have to maintain at very low calories that i may not be able to sustain? Takong into account the ups and downs of this journey should I chase a certain date to have lost the weight by or should i let this process take as long as it needs to as long as i am on this journey? Would that not lead to complacency? Is there anything wrong with my size now that i have lost these kilos and i look good in clothes again? Am i chasing a number on the scale because i am struggling with accepting myself the way that i am? I am currently not unhealthy and i look very good in clothes and I think my BMI healthy range puts me at a very low weight thay takes so much to sustain.
A part of me remembers how great it felt when i was thin but it also remembers how i was constantly afraid of regaining the weight and i was on this constant circle of eating well and beinging.
Am i really willing to pay the rent of sustaining that low rate or must i just keep exercising and eat reasonably healthy and just accept and let my body find a range that it can sustain without the total focus that it takes to loose weight?
I have decided to quit my job and start my own business and the focus that i need to give to build my business needs to come from some of the focus i give to this weight loss journey. Because if we all have to admit this weight loss management can be a full time job.
Lots of questions and not many answers