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Monday, May 04, 2015

I haven't interacted much here in the last couple of years. It's been a rough time. My mother died. My son had surgery. One cat had 2 surgeries. Another cat died. My weight is up. I have been depressed. My thyroid has still not settled down after RAI about 1.5 years ago. I think it's coming back to life. I have plantar fasciatis (diagnosed) and 2 bone spurs in one foot, and gout in the other.

I've been trying really hard in the last few months to get a grip. I'm tired of feeling such despair every morning when I have to get dressed to go to work. Like, deadly despair.

So I started Couch-to-5k again. I've been strictly dieting. Today I ate well (healthfully but light) and went for a 58-minute walk/run. And now, right before bed, my DH just brought me a f*cking milkshake. WHAT IS WRONG WITH THIS MAN?? I am FURIOUS. I have no one to talk to, so this blog is who I'm talking to. It doesn't matter if anyone reads it or not. I need to get this out before I explode.

I did not drink the milkshake. I did not hit my husband with a crowbar. I so wanted to do both.
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  • MARINGAL
    How about having a face to face conversation with your husband and tell him how important this journey is for you.
    1793 days ago
  • SHAWFAN
    GREAT job on NOT drinking the milk shake and also not hitting hubby upside the head. I know how tempting that probably was. Keep plugging away and you'll feel better, hopefully soon. emoticon emoticon
    1793 days ago
  • ZOEWMU
    Husbands can be a pain in the neck. It takes them a while to catch on to changes that we make in our lives, and to change what they do in response. Congrats to you for turning down the milkshake, and for not giving him a therapeutic hit upside the head.

    Hang in there! It can get better.
    1793 days ago
  • NATPLUMMER
    Great job on both counts!! emoticon
    1793 days ago
  • TAMRAPSPARK1
    Good job not drinking the milkshake - and not hitting the husband with a crowbar, tempting as I'm sure they both were!! emoticon
    1793 days ago
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