Saturday, June 06, 2015
Good day all!
It's Renee and not much has happened, weight wise at least. Since last October and today..which I did NOT weigh myself I was 183 and now probably around 179...(waiting for lady days to wear off). Now for some one who wants to lose at least 30 more pounds the fact that the scale hasn't moved in say 8 MONTHS!!! Might freak someone out...am I a failure? Did I lose focus? Did I lose determination? Well, if I look at it as an actualist (if there is even such a thing), this Chick who has been on a weight loss roller coaster since November 2008, is actually a SUCCESS! Yup, a success. I have maintained my freaking weight for 8 months!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Holy cow pie!
Now are the questions I asked above still relevant though? Oh yeah, complacency is my bud, we worked hard...work hard....and have a life. I ran my first half marathon for 2015 last month and Pr'd by exactly 9.5 minutes!!! That too is FREAKING AWESOME! My next one is in 2 weeks and then my final one for the year will be in October. That one, the one that started it all and acted as a $125 therapist, is and has been some of the best therapy for the reason I started running these dam 13.1 miles, the recovery from the loss of my step-father. Do you know how hard it is to run while you are crying, yet trying to not cry? It is HARD!
Well, am I a failure? Did I lose focus? Did I lose determination? Yes, to two of those, but I am definitely not a failure! I am going to keep going, whether the weight goes too, but I will get there, I do understand that sleep, family and work are a little more important as to the time I spend at the gym or on the road with my running shoes. So there it is, a few quick thoughts on my stable weight...and how I know I am a success even though I have bigger dreams that will come with time.