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Tuesday, July 14, 2015

I don't know if it's the pain of sciatica, hip and knee, partner being out of commission, too, the overwhelming housework and laundry partly due to the flooded basement that I haven't the strength to do or what...my emotions (tears particularly) have been very near the surface today.

I'm doing fine staying in range with calories, can't do much exercise, checking blood sugar which is all over the place...

I guess I'm feeling sorry for myself. I know we all have pity parties now and then, but I don't want to. Wish I knew how to stop it.

I have so many responsibilities helping my partner with her health problems, hate looking at the messy house, etc. I am constantly on pain killers that don't work all that well.

Don'e bother to comment here, I don't really need sympathy...I know I CHOSE these issues as lessons...I know this life in the world of form is just an illusion.

Looked at my family on facebook this morning. Gosh, I miss my daughter and family. Miss all my kids and grands.

I checked to see if this kind of emotion is related to diabetes (I'm newly diagnosed) and can find nothing.

Just feeling overwhelmed. What I really need is (remember the old song?) those little men in their funny white coats coming to take me away.

Anyway, maybe I need to apologize for even writing this. (crying again). I always have been good at putting problems, questions and even meditations into words.

Everyone PLEASE have a better day than I am having.

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TEXASTITCHER
Can you find a diabetes support group in your area. they might help.
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You vent, cry or write about whatever bothers or worries you, sweetheart! Getting it out is part of healing! I will not overstep my "advice" here, so suffice it to say......(((HUGS)))
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ROBEC4175
I hate my bad days and yours sounds s****y. Hang in there and I like Danielle's advice to get someone in to help out getting the laundry and housecleaning caught up.

Take care.

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MERILYNN1
Hi _I know the place you are in and I do feel for you. I have a method that helps me when I am there. Mentally I shut all the "should - would - why " stuff in a closet and refuse to look in there. to avoid looking and thinking about that stuff I find something on-line or in a book (about the only time I look at novels) that takes my interest. If I can go out (not often - too much pain when I have to move) I go even in the wheelchair around the building, Usually it s something in my favorite area of interest and when I can find something new to learn, I feel better. Then and only then do I go to that locked closet and take out ONE thing to deal with.

I know this is nothing new to you and I offer it simply because I have never had the courage to tell anyone how I feel. I so admire your sharing your thoughts and feelings - I'm told it is the first step to feeling better - maybe someday I can be that
open, honest and trusting and I can help myself by sharing with those I trust, who understand and CARE.
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DANIELLET96
Hey, you are having a bad day (or several) and it is OK TO CRY. I love a quote that goes something like this: "Perhaps our eyes need to be washed by tears once in a while so we can see life with a clearer view again!"

As a newly diagnosed diabetic myself, I can tell you that uncontrolled blood sugar does wreak havoc with emotions!! While it is GREAT that you are keeping within calorie range, I can also tell you that when I keep my DAILY CARBS less than 100/day, I have my lowest glucose readings

Housework and laundry will always be there, do the minimal you have to for now and try and do something you enjoy: getting a pedicure? Watching a comedy on DVD? Swimming? I had a stint with sciatica that lasted a year but was able to get some relief (and exercise) in a pool. One day, poof, it was gone. (Check to make sure your mattress is giving you good support-this was one of the problems I had, bought a new one)

Can you afford to hire someone just once to catch up on house cleaning and/or laundry? Can a friend or someone at your church pitch in? You need a support group. You have EVERY RIGHT to feel sorry for yourself but you DO have a lot of plusses in your life 1) A family you adore, 2) a LIFE PARTNER, 3) Spark People and 4) GOD ... . . . . WE HAVE YOUR BACK!!

Your life is changing FOR THE BETTER, you are making concrete steps to get healthy. This is just a tiny setback.

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