I was starting to get really bummed. As always, I started the year with some really great plans and looked forward to making it "my year" to really change things. In theory, I wanted things to change. I wanted to feel better, stronger, more fit. I wanted to feel more confident and in control. But, since it was already July and I wasn't really getting anywhere, I started to really worry that I would never be able to "break free" of my mental hurdles and reach my goals. How hard was I really working? I was mostly just wishing!
I did make progress in a few places. I had wanted to ride on Lake shore Drive for Bike The Drive (30 miles) and I signed up and did that- Yay for a Win!! I had my mammogram and full physical- Yay for another win!! Other accomplishments- I finally was able to step away from some of the volunteer work I had been doing to allow myself to have a little bit more free time.
So, I was making some progress, but not as much as I had wanted.
On the weight loss front, I have really struggled. I was looking for an approach that "fit" me well. I wanted something that was easy and convenient. I wanted an approach where I did not have to eat differently than the rest of my family. I searched and pondered and read so many different things....I got so confused about what the "right approach" would be and what would work.
I think it is true that things fall into place when you are ready for them to. I was open and had so much desire. I really wanted to make things different for myself.
In my searching, I decided to turn to one of my favorites- Dr. Oz. I went to his website and found his 10 Day Rapid Weight Loss Plan. The words that attracted me....10 Day Plan! I didn't care so much about a gimmick or a quick promise of a big loss. I just needed a plan...and I believed I could try something for 10 days. I read the plan and it sounded easy enough- I could eat foods I liked. I actually had much of what I needed in the house already. I knew I would have to say good bye to bread and wheat and sugar...but I knew I was ready to do that. I made a list of what I needed for the plan, went shopping and started the next day....Day 1 was on July 7.
That 10 days has revived me in every way! I found a plan that works for me. Most mornings, my husband and I head out for a morning walk. I love having between 2500-3000 steps in the morning before I get going for the day. I also love the alone time I get with him! It is not a lot of exercise, but it is more than the nothing I was doing before. I love starting my day with lemon water. It is refreshing and gets me going. I enjoy making a smoothie for breakfast. I eat more fruit than I usually do, I feel good about the ingredients I am adding, and it keeps me satisfied all morning. My lunches and dinners consist of protein- chicken or salmon- and veggies. I have eaten brussel sprouts, green beans, spinach, salads- all sorts of things that make me feel good. I eat my healthy fats. Then, I have ended most days with a soothing detox bath.
None of this has been hard. A few times (for parties and things) I have packed a salad and brought it with me. In order to be successful, I have had to plan ahead. I have had to be disciplined. I made chocolate cake for my dad's birthday but had to think ahead to what eating that cake would feel like in the morning, when I got on the scale as opposed to what that would feel like in the moment! I actually had to be mindful and care about each decision to eat, or not eat.
I have been rewarded with some quick results that have made me believe that I can reach my goals if I just "show up" everyday. I started my 10 days at 182 pounds and ended at 174.6. My pants fit better and I feel empowered. I know that I can blow all that progress in one or two bad days....so I am not going to have a parade or do any huge celebrating, but I will enjoy the fact that I stuck to a plan and achieved results that give me hope!
My biggest joy is in BELIEVING again. We all know how it feels to want something. But sometimes, we need a big push towards getting it - a clear path with how to get there. These past 10 days have given me that push and the path. I plan to keep on going- keep on growing, keep on learning. The more I understand about what "good foods" really are, and how to help keep my body healthy, the easier I think this lifestyle change will be.
I am just excited to be where I am today as opposed to where I was on July 6. I will remember this blog and will reread it when I need that extra glimmer of hope that will propel me forward!
Whatever you are struggling with and wherever you are.....just start. You have to start somewhere!