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Frustrated…

Tuesday, August 11, 2015

I have been so frustrated with my health & fitness goals lately! I thought that by having the hysterectomy in March, I would be back to feeling like my old self in a few weeks. Well, it took me at least 12 weeks to feel “normal” after the surgery. Unfortunately, I have had one sinus infection after another since the spring!! So even though my scars have “healed”, I am still not WELL!! I go to the ENT dr this Friday. I am hoping for some antibiotics & a surgery date to clean out the gunk in my left sinus!

Since march, I have tried many of my “old” tricks to get back on track. They will work for a few days, then I am back to being a couch potato and eating whatever strikes my fancy! NOT good!!

Today, I am trying again. I have often quoted the Chinese proverb to others here on Spark : fall down 7 times, get up 8. I am taking my own advice!!

I reset my spark goal weight. Since I have been unsuccessful at losing weight, I may as well try to “maintain”. This has brought my calorie goal up to 1700 max. Granted, I have not been anywhere close to this number in recent days, but at least I have continued to track everything I eat! Now, it will be a little easier to try to “make my calorie goal”.

I also decided to choose “earn 70 points a day” as one of my daily goals. I LOVE competition (especially against myself) and love checking things off lists! Making myself BE on the Spark website may just help spur on my motivation. Remember that old Jodie Messina song?? My give a dang’s busted! That has been my song these last few months!!

I’ve been doing pretty good on a few daily goals for this month (Joyce Meyer Bible study, 4 freggies, 10 minutes outside, 10 waters, 8 hours of sleep).

But there are a few I’m having trouble with :
~participating in the Biggest Loser team (I’ve been hit & miss all season & haven’t lost any weight!! this is the last week, so I will need something else to strive for after its done.)
~yoga video (I did the 15 min Sara Beth videos faithfully for about 10 days. But I was finding that my back hurt really bad every evening. I am taking a 5 day break to see if it helps my back. Yesterday, no video, no back pain)
~Spark Calendar – I am doing the “Small Changes Calendar”. Even though they are small steps, it has been tough to do them. I will keep pressing on & do the best I can each day
~Doing Jessica Smith’s FitIn15 videos – these have been a struggle for me. I just do not have the strength & stamina that I had this time last year. It is really discouraging!! I am going to try to press on & do each video as well as I can & hope that the effects will one day catch up with me.

I refuse to give up on my goal of being healthy & fit. I am just trying to find a way to make it work through all the struggles I am faced with (Did I even mention the wedding we are planning for my second son & a possible one for my oldest? So much “good” stress (and food!)

Thankfully, God’s mercies are new each morning! He is my Rock & my Redeemer!! In Him, I will place my trust!!

Blessings!
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  • MKBWNSUGAR
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    1870 days ago
  • GRLTAZ
    Aww, GF, that is a lot of stress. try to be grateful for your challenges as they help you grow spiritually and really do make you stronger. I hope you are staying with BLC for fall. you can be an honorary member where your weight does not count but you still do what you can in the challenges. It may be the small push you need. That is what I found out when I quit for a season. Push on. (((hugs)))
    1871 days ago
  • PATTI_PAL1
    Look at what you ARE doing. That's quite a lot.

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    1871 days ago
  • SABLENESS
    It is discouraging to find that your body doesn't heal as quickly as you'd like from a major trauma like surgery. You're so right that one's stamina just doesn't resume where you left off. You're on the right track by being realistic about what is possible at this time. emoticon
    1872 days ago
  • PRNCSCUP1-2FULL
    I just started the 30 Day Plateau buster challenge here on SP. Hoping it keeps me on track! When I first did the Fit in 15 workouts I wasn't at my best either and now they seem a bit easy! So, I have great hope for you! Hoping you can get the gunk cleared out and some antibiotics and start feeling alive again real soon! Congrats on the weddings, but that is a lot of work! And, food!!
    1872 days ago
  • SEWINGMAMACDS
    emoticon Yes, God is my Rock and my Redeemer! He will give you the strength you need.

    Some good advice I am learning to give myself -- don't stress about the weight and exercise. The goal is to be healthy. Praying you will get some answers and help with the sinus problems.

    Exciting about the weddings!! At least you are the grooms mother -- the bride's mother has so much more work emoticon

    Hugs, my friend!
    1872 days ago
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