day 375 Not much
Tuesday, August 25, 2015
Thank you Koffee. I'll look into that a bit.
I got thru the day. A huge part of my guilt is that I was supposed to get those Dept, 56 things out of the garage and I just was such a mess most of June with all the stuff I did for mom and on and on and on. That I just never did it. I knew Tessa wanted them but the boys really didn't care what I knew they just wanted mom and dads house cleaned out. The hurry was very hard on me during most of May and into early June. They seem to forget that I have some liabilities when it comes to moving, packing, bending and carrying.
My mom's birthday is this weekend. I am not looking forward to the brothers and their families coming to celebrate it. My mom will spend a lot of the time looking to me to repeat things people say she can't understand. She seems to hear my voice I suppose because she's used to it.
I haven't made any decisions about how to deal with this financial emergency. I have some choices I don't want to make. I want to be independent but I pretty much always screw it up. I don't think I can take being reminded that I screwed up again.