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Wednesday, September 09, 2015

So I started this weight loss adventure at 178 lbs. Managed, with professional guidance and big lifestyle changes, to drop down to 128. For one surprising day I reached 126. And in the last two months, I have gained slowly and steadily, and am now at 136.

I knew it was happening. I was indulging. I was tracking, but I was indulging. And my clothes got a little tighter, and I started hiding from the balance.

But this weekend I decided to face the music. Considering how much I've been bingeing on evening snacks, the damage could be worse. It's not good, but I can fix this.

So I've finished day 2 of getting back on track. The only after dinner snack I've had tonight is a half serving of Fiber One original cereal, a.k.a. "human food pellets", which are crunchy and barely not awful and a superb source of fiber.

It seems I made the classic mistake of rewarding myself for reaching my goal by treating myself to some of the things I was deprived of while I was losing. And because I love food, and I love snacking, the floodgates opened and ... well, here I am. Time to be serious again and get back on track. Time to re-learn the lesson and re-commit: this is a lifestyle change.

And is it unreasonable for me to wish that it were as easy to lose weight as to gain it? It certainly isn't as much fun!
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  • BUTTONPOPPER1
    Well, I think that it CAN be as much fun to lose or maintain, because it helps set you free emotionally, and the rewards become more meaningful than a brief, pleasurable "moment on the lips."

    When I am doing well, eating is indeed a great pleasure, as I know it is something I must do to keep my body healthy in order to do what I'm supposed to do in this world, whereas when I allow myself to eat in an undisciplined way, there is so much guilt and anguish associated with food. I think your tiny rebound was to be expected, for as you say, after so many months of what felt like extreme deprivation, you naturally felt like rewarding yourself for a job well done. You will find the right balance! One day at a time. AND, you don't have to limit your snacks to human food pellets!
    2046 days ago
  • no profile photo CD1338628
    I keep seeing a funny postcard going around saying: "I wish everything was as easy as getting fat." Seriously, so accurate. I'm sure you'll get back on track. You've been so successful!
    2050 days ago
  • SUE0318
    You have done it before and you can do it again - when you reach your goal weight, maybe try allowing yourself one treat a week on the weekend.
    2050 days ago
  • no profile photo SASSYGIRL50
    I know the struggle. I feel like every day I have to tell myself this is a new day. You have done great. Keep it up.
    2050 days ago
  • SOOZIEQUE55
    You can do it. I am working on not snacking at night at all. I keep reminding myself that its not a diet, its a lifestyle change. Just keep taking it one day at a time. emoticon emoticon emoticon

    2050 days ago
  • ZRIE014
    do not let it get you down. you know you can do it. have a nice day
    2050 days ago
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