Stressed and perplexed
Thursday, September 10, 2015
Work is completely stressing me out. There's too much to do, things have been piling up, and there's always more being added to the pile.
On top of it, there's a support person in the office who's become very difficult to deal with. She gets upset with most people much of the time when we ask for her assistance. It's her job to provide support, but she's belligerent in response to requests. The nice part of me feels bad for making her feel bad - I know whenever I make a request that she's going to respond badly. On the other hand, it's her job to provide the support and assist us, so I need to ask her to help because I shouldn't be doing her job in addition to my own.
I'm not used to people being upset with me so this situation just adds to the stress at work. And sometimes I doubt my approach - should I be tougher? Should I just avoid asking for her assistance and try to do everything myself? HR is not much help; they are going through some painfully slow process to try to address this co-worker's poor attitude, and I think that because it's taking so long, she doesn't feel it necessary to improve her approach.
Which is all a big dump to say that by the time I get home, I am ready to fill my knotted stomach with dinner. And after I have the table and kitchen cleaned up, and am sitting on the sofa avoiding working on my laptop, I am more than ready to top myself off with crunchy salty things. I am used to comforting myself with food, and these days it's a daily struggle not to do so.
But tonight I managed. My evening snack was an ounce of salty smoked whitefish. Too salty to eat much of, and flavorful enough to really savor in small morsels. And high in protein and low in carb, so it didn't trigger any desire to binge.
I really want to go to bed badly and end this stressful day, but the kid is still working on her homework. I like to keep her company and answer the occasional questions or check her answers when asked. Her days are even longer than mine - I hate thinking that she's even more stressed than I am!