Day 11 of 117
Thursday, September 10, 2015
Well these last 2 weeks i have failed. I've only been eating right 1/3 of the time, i havnt worked out other than swimming and using a paddle boat. i can feel myself failing and i hate it. i know its from lack of motivation, the scale has moved very little since i started in august and I'm afraid to measure because when i put a before and after pic next to eachother i looked bigger in the after which makes no sense so i just feel drained. I'm gonna find my motivation today though, i bought much healthier food for this week. I'm gonna drink all the water I'm supposed to and I'm gonna workout twice tomorrow to really kick my butt in gear, and then I'm just gonna have to find some incentive or some new ways to keep motivation around me all day until i can really get to the point where i dont need it. Also monday I'm starting a push-up and squat challenge along with a new challenge one of my spark teams is starting. I've just gotta find a way to push through this, or ill never have the body, the confidence, the self respect and the happiness that i want so desperately. I think I'm also gonna set goals I've got to do each week so that it gives me something to strive for.