Lost and Confused BUT there is still fight left***
Thursday, September 17, 2015
So fast forward almost a year later and I am basically in the same place I was a year ago.
This is FREAKING DEPRESSING!!!! I have been off work for over an year which was supposed to be my FIND MYSELF time, GET HEALTHY time, and find MY PURPOSE time.....But instead I found myself at an even HIGHER HIGHEST WEIGHT EVER.... 312lbs. If someone would of told me that I would one day be over 300lbs I would of laughed in their face seriously.
How did I get here? Why every time I try to change myself the reserve happens? Is this just a hopeless DREAM?
SO I hit the reset button again on 8/28/15 at a whopping 312lbs. I am down 9lbs so far (303lbs). I can't even be happy about that because in the back of my mind I keep thinking HOW MANY TIMES I have started this journey before only to end up right back at the same point.
To sum it all up as the title states I am lost and confused right now but I am still fighting.
What I do know is that I miss the amazing support I received from Spark people. There is truly NO other community like it! So I AM BACK.
I have missed you guys so much!
Back to the basics!
I am tracking all my food (MFP tko0551)
and will start getting more active this week,