Well, I am Back!!!!
Sunday, September 20, 2015
I am back after my fight with my hubby and falling off the wagon so to speak I am back. I was just so over stressed and hurt that I went on a binge eating everything and anything I wanted to not caring. Like that helped me out. No I have not gotten on the scale to see how much I put back on because at this stage off the game I would go even farther in the whole then I am already. I am going to start over with I did as of yesterday. I did not get all of my food logged on here but I did log on paper and I was under for the day so I am happy with that. I got in a ton of water too so I am doing better. Yesterday was my first day back to work in a week. And it about killed me. I hate vacations because of that. I love my job but not the day after vacation. I had so much work to catch up on and then I had to work with the one person I hated the most. And she would not listen to me at all. Which just pissed me off. I wanted to kill her by the end of the night. I am telling her look we are not making money I will be here by myself all day tomorrow I need you to stop one your doing and start cleaning I have got to finish what I am doing. I had to her this 4 different times and she still did not do it. We did not get out of there until 9:30 and it should not have taken us that long and we still did not get everything done. I was so pissed by the time we got out of there I was not even talking to her. I do not use the hate word much because I think you should find something good in every one and the only good I see in this woman is when she is not working. Sorry I don't mean to vent but this is just a lot on me right now. I am trying to prove myself as a manger and I can not get this woman to do anything. And it makes me feel like crap. On the up side I am not by myself today because I have to flip my shoes. I did not tell the other girl that. LOL
So my big plans for today is to relax and get as much done today as I can. I am not going to stress over anything. I should have done that yesterday but I did not I let things get to me and I am still trying to learn how to let thing roll off my back that is one thing as you see I am not good at. LOL. I take things to heart to much. I am not mean when I need to be and I am not genital when I need to be. I am trying to figure all of that out. I am sure at some point I will figure it all out. I know I am going to have a good day today. I just hope the people are in better moods as well. Yesterday we had some real means yesterday. Well I am of to relax before work and then I will log my food and all. Hugs and love to you all.