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A trip down memory lane ...

Saturday, October 03, 2015

As I am browsing through SP this morning, I decide to check on my page and realized I have been a member of sp since November 2008 ! That is 7 years !!!
Now with that being said, my mind has gone back those 7 years, back to 2008. I think of the things that have happened, I lost my father in 2010, a friend in 2014, my beloved kitty of 17 years in 2014, my beloved dog of 14 years in 2015 as well as some others in my life. I also started a new job in 2011, bought a boat which we really enjoy all summer long, and many other things both good & not so good. I am truly blessed, I have a wonderful supportive family and friends. The only thing that has not changed, not for any length of time anyway is my lifestyle when it comes to eating and looking after myself. If I rember correctly, I am now about 100 lbs heavier than I was in 2008. Definitely not where I wanted to be today...
I have spent the last 7 years eating myself into oblivion most of the time. All the
time ignoring what this lifestyle is doing to me. Everyday now is a struggle, walking, doing everyday chores, finding a chair I can fit into( without breaking it), clothes that fit, trying to keep a smile on my face pretending that everything doesn't hurt, that I am not totally embarrassed and disgusted with myself, spending my every day living to eat instead of eating to live. I am so full of good intentions but that seems to be as far as I get. I am depressed, how could you not be when you are over 150 lbs over weight. I know I need to lose weight, for my physical as well as emotional well being. I know what to do, have been given some great advice, just got to put it all to use. I know I will get this right, I know I can do it ! I don't want to look back a few years from now and still be in the same boat I am I today.
This trip down memory lane is a definite eye opener today, this situation is not going to get any better until I do something about it. I have given myself lots to think about this morning ...
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  • ARCHIMEDESII
    Linda,

    You can't change the past, but you can influence and change the future. trying to lose weight and fight depression, isn't an easy thing. That's why SP encourages its members to start with some simple changes. Don't beat yourself up if you slip, as they say. No one is perfect. You don't have to be perfect to be healthy. Every little bit really does make a difference.

    One thing that would really help you is support for those times that you feel like you want to throw in the towel. When you feel like nothing is working and you want to quit, leave a post in the forums. I believe that if you were to post more regularly to the forums, you'd feel less isolated in your journey. The spark community is here to help you.

    Do you think you can come more regularly to Spark ? If you don't want to post a message, reply to a post. Replying to other members questions can be just as helpful as having members answer yours.

    One of the things I've learned is that losing weight isn't just about eating right and exercising. A person needs a good support system. that's why it's important to come to SP more often. It's for the support.

    1975 days ago
  • LOVE4KITTIES
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    You can't change the past, only learn from it and then use those lessons to make a brighter future. Forgive yourself for the past. Start making that brighter future today.
    1976 days ago
  • GETTHERE135
    I know exactly what you mean. I often find myself in the same place of realizing how much time has passed and still no where goal weight. It is very frustrating. I know I had mentioned this before, but have you given any thought to reading the Beck Diet Solution? I know you struggle with all or nothing thinking, and it is a great book about trying to change what goes on in your mind. How to train your thinking and make healthy living a way of life, while not beating yourself up for the times you are less than perfect. Wishing you the best and success!!
    1976 days ago
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