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Thursday, October 15, 2015

I was feeling that my 8 lbs lose wasn't a big deal, and then I found this picture. So of put it in perspective!

What things do you want to do when you reach your goal weight? What is stopping you from doing it now?

The following is a post from another person's blog:
"And when I say “rough patches,” I’m not talking about the daily ups and downs and minor frustrations we all go through as part of our daily weight loss soap opera. I’m talking about those really deep doubts, worries, fears, and outbreaks of real despair and confusion that grab you once in a while and shake you all the way down to your toes—the kind that make you realize that there may have been some good reasons why you turned to food to help you manage your life in the first place; the kind that make you wonder whether you really want to upset this applecart right now. As they say, sometimes denial and repression are your friends."

I don't know that food helped me to manage my life, but that was exactly what I did. And as an adult I kept using food to keep the feelings in. So it a way it wasn't a matter of what I was eating, but what was eating me.

I am feeling vulnerable at the moment, as my defense mechanisms are smoking & overeating. Although I am working hard at trying to replace the bad habits with healthy ones, there is this little grieving process I am dealing with. Always before when I quit smoking, I told myself, its OK if things get too tough, you can always go back to it. Now I am committed to not going back, I can't go back to it. I don't know if I am crazy by taking on two major habits at the same time, but in my mind they are so interconnected, that if I don't take them both on at the same time, the remaining half will be reinforcing negative behaviors.

I am 65 and I don't have that much time left in my life. Maybe 20 years, if I am lucky, but even if it is only another month, I want to be the best me I can.

I am struggling with the momentum to keep exercising. I find a million reasons not to start. I am busy, I will do this first; I need to clean house, I don't have time to exercise ( hello, and when did house work NOT become exercise?); I am too sore ( well you aren't going to get any better sitting in that chair), I don't have an energy ( see prior excuse buster).

It doesn't matter how good the excuses are, nobody, especially myself is impressed. So let's "JUST DO IT".

SO...now that I am off my Private Pity Party- I am starting an exercise streak- My goal for the next 30 days is to log the type of activities, the distance time, and my FEELINGS. Thank goodness feelings are permanent, they are like the ocean ebbing and tiding. But if I track them, then I can overcome the negative thoughts and supplant them with more positive ones.

I think I will write a letter to my young self, Indy Girl had a great idea with that one.
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    I'm 62 and feel that I have plenty of years to live my life. See? This is what happens when you feel great and healthy. You can do it too!
    2013 days ago
  • PICKIE98
    EIght pounds is great!! That is two bags of sugar!! Eight packages of butter!!!

    When I quit smoking a LONG time ago, I thought of the cigs as my enemy that was out to lil me.I raced to keep away from it instead of thinking it was my comfort,,kind of like an abused person escaping the abuser once and for all!!
    2013 days ago
  • no profile photo MAYO80
    Don't ever think that you have lost too little or not enough weight....instead think "Hey that's less weight I have to lose!" I love the picture, it definitely put things in perspective. A pound may not sound like a lot but it looks like a lot :)
    2013 days ago
    You can pack a lot of living in 20 years...think of all the amazing things you did and learned to do in the first 20 years! It's all perspective. Good luck to you, and congratulations on quitting smoking!
    2013 days ago
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