Once in a while, blow your own damn mind.
I hit a big weight loss milestone today. I will write more about it tomorrow.
Last night, I really thought about my journey. What made me decide to get going? What inspired me to keep at it? Why am I succeeding when others do not?
As trite as this sounds, I think we all have to find our inner spark. We have to have that trigger go off that says, I am DONE feeling lousy. I am DONE being mad at myself all the time. I am DONE having trouble sitting in a seat..airplane, movie theater, pick one. I am DONE being that person anymore.
Now, I have to be realistic here. I have been saying that for a long time, but there was no real conviction in my heart. I turn sixty-years-old early next year. I have spent all my adult life overweight, and lately, really overweight. There were so many factors that got me there, but mostly it was just not exercising and eating the wrong things and not caring. I didn't care about me. How sad is that?
Somehow, you have to have the conviction that you are worth this journey. You have to realize that every single thing you eat is critical to your well being. You have to find an exercise that you like to do, that you want to continue forever. This is a forever deal. There are no quick fixes here. You have to change YOU. You have to know that feeling good is so much more awesome that anything you could think of to eat.
My spark was like a switch got turned on in my head. Do I wish I had been able to turn that switch sooner? NOPE. Because I don't think I was ready to follow through as I have now. I knew how critical this was as I got older and finally I realized that I was important enough to make this effort.
I have NSVs (Non-Scale-Victories!!) every single day. We might think they don't matter, but it just feels good to have people say nice things about the journey you are on, and have made such an effort at. My yoga teacher at the gym announced my weight loss to the chair yoga class, and the whole chair yoga class stood up and clapped for me. I was mortified, and almost started crying. People came up to me afterwards and and just said nice things. An older man, probably in his early 80s, asked if I could sit next to him at the next class. I laughed and said that I would be delighted to, and he winked at me. It made me feel AWESOME.
Get winked at today.
You deserve it.