Wednesday, November 11, 2015
I'm reposting this blog because it's Veteran's Day! And I have a special veteran in my life...so here goes!
Reblog: Where I am...
I've been involved with a guy for the last 7 months who suffers from PTSD. He is a army war veteran who was deployed 5 times. He spent 10yrs in active duty and is currently in the National Guard. He served on the front lines in Iraq and saw heavy action. He was blown up, suffered a brain injury, and still has shrapnel in his body. He is very fortunate to still be here because several of his friends were not so fortunate. He still suffers from nightmares and flashbacks which are classic PTSD symptoms. When he's going through a tough time like he is now he tends to isolate and push me away which makes it tough. However, I make sure he knows I care about him and I'm here for him. As a soldier, he has been through so much and survived. And this is part of the reason I fell for him. However, there is so much more to him and we have so much in common. He's kind, caring, passionate, loves art and history, is so hardworking, loves to laugh, is a scifi nerd like me, and is trying his best to make his life better for example he's even gone back to college to get his degree. Of course his PTSD presents many challenges and he has other obstacles being thrown his way but I'm very proud of the effort he's putting forth. Being a nurse that has worked with veterans for the last 15yrs and knowing myself, I feel secure in saying I believe I'm strong enough to be with him and face these challenges. I hope we continue to work through things and make this relationship work. But if not I hope to still be a means of support whenever he needs me. I'm sure there are many veterans out there going through many of the same things as my soldier but I hope they and their love ones have all the support they need. I'm not sharing this for sympathy, to brag, or make some big statement. I'm sharing it because I love him and he is what is on my mind and heart and it feels good to share that. And being in love with him is a huge deal for me to admit because I don't fall in love easily or quickly but what can I say he got under my skin! And yes being in love with a soldier can present some unique challenges, but it is very worth it. And this is where I am in my life in love with a soldier!